old memories back to haunt me. this month marks seven years since i was molested by my grandfather. i used this forum to help when i reached dead bottom in my life and it really helped me. its been...
also, most of my scars are really thick and deep.... so i need the strongest i can get....
I used to cut... some of you know that. All i want right now is just for every memory of that to just disapear... It seems like everytime i look at them or someone mentions cutting it just ... well...
He's on my dads side; lives really close... & im in one of those familys where we like to get together with everyone for no reason. No i do not go to counseling.. if i did that would be my family...
many of you dont know my story, some of you do... to keep it short, i was sexually abused by my grandfather when i was 10; family basically hates me 'cause they believe whats easier for them; still...
check everyday for a post from you. really worried. i just hope you realize youre on our minds bev....
nanse im starting to get worried....
I haven't heard from her either. Bev; if you see this even if you dont have time just post something so we know youre alright. in my thoughts *...
hey; sorry i didnt respond for awhile. i swear i read your last post allready, and i swear i wrote back... but nothings their so i guess i didnt? Im sorry to hear about your husband. I'm sure as...
---- Just read other post * Aw , im sorry :( . Its good that you decided to basically force him to the emergency room haha! I hope hes doing better now. Awwwwww, i looked at the picture of your dog....
No i didnt read anything about your husband, ill look at that then when i finish this post. Sorry i didnt see it today was okay, like you said though life doesnt go perfectly. If everything was...
Woww, youre son seems like a really strong person. Through everything though, he still got the right education which is amazing, especially these days. OH my gosh :) Bev, im so happy right now its...
Being suicidal and wanting to die i feel are the same. Suicide is allready taking your own life. Relality; most people that do attempt to commit suicide, will get scared, or freak out and end up...
Hope you feel better; you can always whine to me;-) haha....
Yeah, the school system, i just dont trust; haha. Thank you for caring. I'm glad you have such strong faith in me. I do think I've made an improvement, which is surprising since around the holidays...
Talking to my Latin Teacher is just one thing i couldnt' do. I hate talking to people in person about my problems. My Freshmen year, my friend went to guidence about her problems and somehow brought...
Woww bev, i dont even know what to say! Your words seriously just hit me, in a great way. One thing you said; "But if you used those to get a new outfit, you are manipulating the person. That's wrong...
Its been awhile. A lot of things have happened since ive posted. christmas party at grams; well that was just, wow. I was scared, really scared, when i walked in the door. It was the first time i'd...
thanks. ive been listening to angry music all day. blasting it as loud as i can. My mom caught me completly off guard. she asked me if i was doing anything today; and i thought for once we might get...
[u]I love sleep. [i]My life has this tendency to fall apart when I'm awake " .. --> i love that quote. ...
Angeline53, sorry to hear about what happened. I hope everythings okay and works out. Yes bev, as you can tell i made the week alive. I dont know what you'd consider minimum damage. But i made it,...
ive missed you ladies. haven't heard from any of you in awhile. Hows everyone doing?...
i checked it out.. " *Realize that you've been "here" before and that it will pass.... " ... That one really made me think. thanks....
yeah, i saw that then. On the first page it said IE 5.0, but then in the actual chat window it says IE 6.0. Its alright, i downloaded the newer version today....
haha alright :)...
well i changed the clocks so their eastern for me on the website..... lol AHh hahaha... ill take your word for it and go with 5. Hopefully it works this time. I might have detention today, but i dont...
wow.. its saying it will take 2 hours ........ ahhhhhhh , i dont think ill be able to chat with you guys tonight...
no.... its not working for me right, im trying to find internet explorer 6 to download, because mine is only 5 so i think that is why its not working for me...
"You never listen to me, You cannot look me in the eyes. I have struggled to see Why its so easy to push me aside.... I no longer believe, That you were ever on my side. How could you know what I...
Yes music is just amazing... i agree comepletly. Ill check that out now! Thanks:)...
Thank you so much for that. And yes i know its a bad thing to get into, i had so many brusies on my knees from falling that night... everytime i get to the point i want to do one of those, bad...
oh and yes im eastern time zone....
honestly though... it was worth it to me. ...
i wish you two were on. im freaking out.... i dont know what to do....
i completly understand where youre coming from, but the fact is the worst thing you can do is keep everything in side. I am exactly how you are, you keep everything bottled up, until you have a...
You said you had nothing to live for, but or about your 10 year old son? Youve been through alot of pain, and im sure its rough, but you can not blame yourself for your daughters death. I myself had...
Willow, i can tell youre in pain, but you can't give up or lose hope. Youve been trying so hard, why give up now. You should try to just get out and do the things that you still love to do. A day...
Glad things are getting better. Sometimes you have to just give life time, and it turns around. Hope everything continues to bring you two happiness....
Sorry i haven't posted. Thanksgiving, it didn't go as bad as i thought it would.... but it wasn't good either. At times i really just wanted to freak out, but i made it out okay. I've been out of the...