hheelllooo I have had no face to face human interaction since Friday. Also I think I have diabeties. Also I need to stop eating. Today I had * 2 slices of wholegrain bread with peanut butter *3...
[list] * I am going to try to face up to who I am, and what I am, and accept it. * The past is the past. I have to focus on where I am now and stop replaying things in my mind. [/list]...
sending you thought hugs!...
random question but in ER...how long do you sit to wait to be seen? I went the last time about a year ago and waited for 7 hours before being sent to a different hospital....
Hi Libra :) That's a complete disgrace that you can't access healthcare because you can't afford it. People here (in Ireland) complain all the time that our healthcare system is appalling etc etc but...
hey :) I was away for a few days because I was trying to keep busy, flitting about here there and everywhere. I just finished a yoga session on the xbox kinect and am trying to cool down. I really...
I've been applying for copywriting positions. These don't come up often and it's odd that suddenly there's a few of them so maybe it's a good sign - ? Everything did happen very fast. Also the way...
Yeah, I have a thing for religious iconography. I have some stuff in my house; a statuette of the virgin of Guadeloupe; a hand-painted wall .. thing .. of St Anthony. My manager at my previous job...
I swing between being gung ho and thinking I can get over it and move on and then hiding in the bathroom with the door locked. I'm going to be in the house for hours and hours every day alone. We...
yeah I went and got the meds :) it's gone up from €120 to €135! Madness. I'm sitting on the couch trying to gather myself for some hardcore window cleaning. Sometimes maybe wallowing in self pity or...
Which is funny because I last posted about having too much to do to be able to focus. And now all I have is time. We're going to have next to nothing. He's working, thank God, but the job is...
hahaha! I'm eating a banana right now. My digestive system won't know what hit it today at all. Maybe not jogging but perhaps walking :) Life is too short for jogging! Yeah I've just been feeling so...
nah I've been having it pretty rough :D And today I just woke up and was like ..... ENOUGH!...
I just figured people might need a boost. I'm determined to get my life in order. It goes out of control really quickly and then pops back into sync for a while and then spins off. So that means...
Thanks Scaredy :) And hello back :) wave! I'm not in school anymore, sadly, but I work for google at the moment. Being in university is amazing - I can't stress that enough. If anyone's reading this...
I think I expect too much of myself and at the same time have a very low opinion of myself. Maybe if I make a timetable, it might help. Maybe everyone needs a timetable! I've been finding things hard...
emmmm. I know I'm meant to break it up into little parts and work from there but I'm doing that but it's so much stuff to do and to focus on that it just seems ... gigantic. I need to learn about...
happy Christmas everyone. I hope that the day itself doesn't have any flipping out or hunting for websites in dangerous territories. *hugs to everyone* I'll be thinking of all of you, you know. I...
actually, there have been reports now of people dying. I'll try to find the link to the article, as I kept it. It was in a scientific journal. They always say that nobody can die of a heart attack...
Heya Hibee, Good morning :) I hope your new diagnosis wasn't very very scary? Like maybe diagnosed with a cold...? :) I'm feeling pretty good today but I'm worried later on I'll stop but if the...
yeah I know what you mean TY :) I actually feel pretty good today, and I think it's because of my (lame) ongoing attempts at practices so there's hope for you too :)...
Thanks very much, achieving, I'm in work at the moment and it's hard to concentrate, and I'm very tired. Avoiding the coffee though! Stuff of the devil! :) I'm sorry if my post seemed like a moaning...
I'm getting to the stage where anxiety is ruling my life. After 10 years of therapy and doctors and different cocktails of medication & a spell in a psych ward, I've FINALLY been told that what...
Heya TY, I know it always sounds stupid and faffy when they suggest you do breathing and grounding exercises and you're there flipping out and thinking you're gonna have a heart attack, but I've been...
Hello hello :) I know, the worst thing you can ever possibly do is go to the internet because then you think, oh, if everyone's saying it, it must be true. Thanks though for the details about what...
Hi :) I just got off the phone from the GP, and after my bloodtests they found that the prolactin in my brain is high (which was causing the headaches I was having that had prompted me to go to the...
I work in Google in their maps department. It's long days with high levels of concentration. I deal with anxiety in the workplace by locking myself in a bathroom cubicle and curling up on the toilet...
ok :) It'll be good to know that I'm not completely wasting my time. Maybe I should set up a blog or something to chart or log my way out of this mess. Like mindfulness progress or meditation...
exactly :) I always wanted some sort of all-healing bacta tank thing like in Starwars. You just go into it for a few hours and your health bar has returned to full, as it were. I'm trying the...
ohhh, yeah I know. Nerve whatever stuff. But it was allowed in the EU to prescribe it for GAD as well for some reason instead of like xanax or valium because it's non addictive. I do so love...
Thanks Deb :) My 10 years seems paltry in comparison to your 30! I'm 26 now, and I just feel like I've been missing out on some things that I should be doing. I don't know whether the anxiety is...
Thank you so much for your support everyone! I just get so beaten down by it sometimes. It just seems neverending. I'm doing a bit better today. Some of the physical stuff is still there but...
I'm doing it now and it does make me feel better :) Having a mantra or something like 'I am OK' is a pretty good idea too...
I mean. My therapist (ha I sound like a movie) thinks I could be functioning off medication in a year or a little more. I really, really feel that I cannot cope without it. I can just about cope...
ooo sorry :s I am not going back up 3 dress sizes either. Hence this post....
Ah thank God, it's so good to know I'm not alone! People I try to talk to about it think it's really, really weird that I don't know why I'm scared. I have a therapist who I think I might actually be...
Evening everyone :) I've been trying really hard lately to figure out what's making me so anxious. Like if there's a pattern or triggers or what. But I honestly don't know. I really, really don't....
venting is good :) Thanks guys. Seeing as I gained so much weight on lexapro years ago and then on zyprexa last year, I probably very much might gain weight on this. I REFUSE. I don't get how it...
aw that's lovely :) hear hear...
I sometimes feel like it's not real sleep either. Plus when I do sleep, I'm very active! Singing/talking/tossing around/walking around...does this happen to other people? It's driving my bf nuts :)...
Hello, I usually post on various mental health forums, but I have a question about the painkiller, Lyrica (Pregabalin). It's only become lisenced in the EU for treatment of Generalised Anxiety...
Thanks Kitt :) Yeah I'm going to be severely monitoring it this time and reaaalllllly watching what I eat and making sure I exercise a LOT....
Hey all, I've been having a pretty bad time and am off work for a week. I've been prescribed Lyrica to help me calm down. Apparently it's not addictive which is good. I haven't taken it yet. I'm...
I saw Eric Clapton! He played in the castle in my town! It was deadly :) God he's great. And the Doors in general. And yes, it's Robert Plant. I'll make a note and listen to One by One first. FIRST...
Hey Bill, That's great to hear :) I think there's a lot to be gotten out of simplicity. I don't have a tv either but I do have the internet as we're big gamers in this house. Well. He is anyway. I...
hey jamie, thinking of you *hugs* not sleeping is rough :( I'm not sleeping either! We should skype! Although your night would probably be my day.... I hope you feel better soon. Sending good things...
Hey :) I'm back. Thanks for the advice. I'm going to continue to hide from that job and just look for others. It was nice that I made it through their review process. I'm not such a loser after all!...
Robert Plant rocks my WORLD. The end. I will download Alter Bridge. I need music LOTS AND LOTS always. I'm listening to my Chemical Romance like a teenage emo (I'm 26 soon) and actually f***** loving...
...I just checked my 'official' email and saw that a job I really wanted replied SEVEN DAYS AGO with a test they wanted me to do, and I was meant to have it back to them by the 22nd. I feel kicked...
thinking of you, Blu *hugs*...