Hi Everyone, I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday. I haven't been on this in about two weeks or so and I've been doing well. Every day is progress. When I look at everything I can honesty say...
I have felt really weird lately. I think it's good, but just on the whole I've felt weird. I'm working really hard to mentally train myself to stop thinking how I've been thinking the past few...
Let me preface this by saying that I still am feeling better each day. However, I can't seem to stop this mental checking that I'm doing. I'm putting myself in situations in my head to make sure I...
Luna, I went through the exact same thing about being scared of getting depressed. I WASN'T depressed, just afraid of becoming depressed. I'm 23 and I've actually gone through that particular OCD...
Luna, I suffer from more of a pure obsessional OCD as well and I too have gone through those horrifying harming obsessions. I remember THINKING that I was depressed or hated my life or something, but...
Garman, I can relate pretty well with the relationship aspect. I have OCD and while I don't get sad about my relationship, I get very doubtful. Like you, one second I can't wait to see my girlfriend...
Just a quick update on how I'm feeling and doing. The intrusive thoughts are still in my head, but I feel a lot more confident in a few things. One is that they aren't me - they're just thoughts....
I've been on Zoloft for two weeks now (started at 25mg, then upped it to 50mg last week) and I'm seeing a difference for sure. Additionally, I've been seeing a therapist for about a month and a half....
Thanks SC, I know I shouldn't be looking for reassurance, but your response was very reassuring! I'm gaining confidence in myself again which is a nice feeling. When I feel myself start to slide it's...
Last Friday I found myself compulsively checking the internet and researching about OCD and stuff. Not sure why I felt the need to do it that day, but as you can probably guess, it set off a few...
Thanks to both of you. Skitt - that was a nice article, I appreciate you sending that my way. Lisa - thanks for your post too. I know that I have to just accept them and that they're just thoughts....
I don't mean to keep posting, I'm just a little anxious today. Truly I'm feeling a lot better. It's very odd how I'm feeling actually. The nasty thoughts are there, but they aren't bothering me and...
Skitt, SC and Larry, Thanks very much for your words of encouragement. First off, I know that I'm making progress and I know I've said it a thousand times, but those thoughts are so annoying. I know...
Since my doctor's appointment I've felt better. Much better. Also Sunday night I just decided it was time - and this time really time to put in the mental work. I have just seemed to really be...
After all the help and support you've given me, the least I can do is send prayers your way. Good luck....
Thanks for everyone's support! I can tell you how much I appreciate it! I gave up on researching a few weeks ago because some of the stuff I saw triggered me pretty hard, but one of the things that...
Long wait at the doctors which I handled pretty well but I went in and the doctor and I decided to start on 25mg of Zoloft. After my little freak out earlier I felt a lot better. Many people on this...
Thanks again. I went outside and took about a five minute walk just to clear my head and it seemed to calm me down a little bit. The intrusive thoughts from yesterday are quieter - again I know...
Thanks yeah I know. It's a leap of faith and I want to take it. I know my thoughts and feelings. I feel like I've done all I can do on my own (without medication) so I'm ready and willing to get the...
Thanks for the support everyone. I did journal a bit last night which did help. I'm nervous about going on the medication. My therapist suggested Zoloft because it's good with OCD. I know this is...
I'm really frustrated today. I don't get why my head continues to put these intrusive thoughts into my head time and time again. It makes me feel like I want them there and I don't. I hate them. It...
I've battled with that stuff for a while. It sucks. It's like being in a really unhealthy, clingy relationship. You can't go anywhere or do anything without it checking in and being with you. Even...
Thanks a lot, both of you. What you both said make a lot of sense and even after the initial event when I started to get anxious I was able to step back and see exactly what you were saying. This...
I realized over the weekend that a huge issue for me is confidence. Don't get me wrong, I've been feeling a lot better, but here's what happened. My girlfriend came home for the weekend. We had a...
Yeah that's exactly what I was thinking! I have fought and fought and analyzed and researched and tortured myself and tried being logical and illogical and it is finally starting to fade which is...
I've been feeling much better, set new goals and am doing a decent job with them. The one thing that's really frustrating me now (almost to a comical point) is that since I have been feeling better I...
Yeah I remember I smelled really bad at that age too. Also for what it's worth, I remember my mom telling me I had a "unique stench" when I'd be going through anxiety bouts when I was younger....
I haven't been on this in a few days so I wanted to throw a little update out there for anyone interested. Since last Wednesday which was my first session with a therapist, I have actually felt a lot...
On the whole, the last couple of days I have felt a lot more naturual and better. The thoughts are hitting me from time to time, but I'm not letting myself get wrapped up in them. I'm not fighting...
Holly, When I was old enough to realize I had anxiety, I felt very simialr to you. I felt like I should not be worrying and instead be enjoying my life and everything. "My life is good, what the hell...
I like your idea. Talking yesterday really cleared my head a lot. The pointless anxieties I have been having are still there, but like I said, they hold a lot less power at this point. Will they come...
The appointment went really well. I was very happy with it. It's crazy how they can zero in on things you didn't even realize were problems. Apparently I'm very black and white when it comes to right...
Hey Scared, I'm about to go to a counselor for the first time today, but I have been journaling for the past few weeks and it definitely helps me out. At the very least I see my "fears" on paper and...
Today I'm going in for my first session with a therapist. I'm pretty excited and a little nervous. I know I'm not going to walk out of there "cured" but I'm looking forward to meeting and talking...
Thanks for the input. Yeah it's crazy. Last night it was kind of tough, but I really am trying hard to just let go and be myself - the "myself" that fell for her and at one point felt completely...
Thanks I really appreciate it...
Good luck Kitt!...
I went to visit my girlfriend this weekend and I will say the drive up was pretty tough. Two hours by myself in the car and I was about to go crazy from the racing thoughts and "what ifs." When I...
Here's the daily check in for me. Good news is that I have finally scheduled an appointment for next Wendesday and I'm very excited and a little nervous. Yesterday was good. I'm wondering if somebody...
I don't mean to keep posting, but until I get in with a therapist this is pretty therapeutic for me. Yesterday afternoon, the intrusive thoughts came in pretty hard again and I knew that I had to...
While I never felt like I was in any real physical danger in a previous relationship, I understand what it's like being in a mentally abusive one. I've told the story about a thousand times on this...
Thanks for all the positive support! I did pretty well with my goals yesterday considering it was the first day that I tried them. I guess I spiked a little bit in the late afternoon, but I tried...
Yesterday I was all pumped and ready to go to call a psychologist and set up an appointment. I asked someone for a recommendation and was sure they would e-mail me right back, but they did not and I...
Thanks guys again I appreciate the support. Lately I've almost felt like I just don't care about my obsessions and almost feel like I've just accepted them. If you recall, I have been very anxious...
First off thanks for everyone's input on my previous posts. Based on what you all have said and talking to my mom I have kind of figured that I have OCD. When I realized this I went to a couple of...
Today I'm feeling a little frustrated with myself. I have felt really good the last week until the night time and I kind of just accepted it as part of the recovery process. However, today I woke up...
Gimmy, Honestly no problem at all. I actually really appreciate it. I saw you post in another one about the idea that OCD is just about being a germophobe and I think that's kind of what I thought...
I didn't have a great experience on medication. I was on paxil for about two years. I think it did help me with my anxiety, but the side effects were too much for me. I gained a lot of weight and no...
Gimmy, I have to say that I never really considered myself as OCD, but looking back I definitely am. Her and I had been friends for a quite a while before we started dating and this was really the...
Anthony, Dude, "we can't trust our own brain now" that's exactly it and it's the most frustrating thing. I've been saying that for about a week now because that's how it feels. You get a taste of...