I am feeling inept and inadequate this evening, and have no one to share my flood of emotion with as I have successfully convinced every one I know that I am doing well. And I am feeling guilty in...
It has been awhile. I am just needing an outlet this evening, where I will not be told that I am being irrational, or to just breathe, or that it is all in my head. All of those things are true - I...
So, you know that list of possible side effects that accompanies every prescription? If you look down to the very bottom, where it says "extremely rare - contact physician immediately" they put that...
I'm so tired of this roller coaster!...
Just having a rough couple of days. I was on a steady path and doing great, then I just crashed again. I hate this. I want to curl up and cry, but that isn't an option. I have to be strong all the...
Thanks for the posts. I have a hard time knowing when to fight and when to just let things slide....
Hi. Just need a venting outlet. I was having lunch with my mom, her sister, and some friends and the topic of mental illness came up. My mom said, "I feel for people who struggle with those issues....
I'm sure it's all related. I started to get shaky, someone noticed and reported to the boss, a lot of paperwork followed, I'm worried about my job, shakiness increases, I need to ensure no one...
I'm so shaky! When I arrive home at night I walk in the house, shut the door, and collapse on the floor. I hold everything together all day, then when there is no one around I fall apart. I don't...
I'm having a moment of weakness, and I already feel bad for giving in to it, but I just need to put a voice to what's happening without fear of repercussions. I keep forgetting how to breathe. I have...
Thanks. I'm supposed to pick up the paperwork from my doctor tomorrow - my diagnoses and reasonable accommodations. I don't want to cause problems. I live in the US and employers are required to...
So, I thought I was doing well. No major issues that I can't handle. I still have frequent panic attacks, but I manage. My job performance is not impacted so I guess I let my guard down and failed to...
I love my class! I would never ask to not teach anymore. I am also very protective and possessive of them and don't like other people teaching my class. It's really not a big deal. They know to back...
I teach a 12-14yr old Sunday school class every Sunday morning. We can't have the door closed, I have to be able to see the window, no one is allowed to touch the table after I have clorox-wiped it,...
The problem is that I don't talk. I have selective mutism and have been working on this problem since I was 5. Therapy, medications, self-help, relaxation techniques... I've done it all. My doctor...
I had an appointment with my doctor this morning. I had a sweet panic attack in her office and it seemed more concerning to her than it was to me. It was like my body was panicking but my mind was...
I recently read a study in The Quarterly Journal of Experimental Psychology in which it was determined that talking to yourself increases cognitive functioning - it makes you smarter;)...
I'm not a fan of the backlash after holding it together so long. I washed every window in my house last night (which is one of my favorite, most calming activities - I know that's weird) and I feel...
I just returned home from a 3 week visit at my brother's new home in WA. I mowed his lawn, weeded his flowers, painted the house, tiled the bathroom, and helped build a patio. I had to sleep on the...
My triggers are: telephones, adults, incessant noise, and someone saying "you have to ___" The biggest is knowing I will be expected to talk...
I'm originally from Hawaii; have lived in Maryland, Massachusetts, Virginia, and Pennsylvania; and currently reside in Utah - greatest snow on earth!...
I have a new med regimen, and after just one day my coworkers (even the ones who don't know about my issues) were all commenting on how smiley I was. Crossing my fingers and praying that it stays....
I had a huge, out of control panic attack at work yesterday and a coworker had to send one of my kids away because I couldn't even stand up or keep my eyes open, or leave her office. She had a group...
I was just told to stop completely. My body gets meds out of the system uncharacteristically fast - no time for withdrawal. I'm just weird like that....
I'm supposed to discontinue the Abilify. I've only been on it for a month. I seem to experience the 'rare, discontinue, call your doctor immediately' side effects to any medication I try. I'm almost...
My friend called my doctor today and I was instructed to go off another prescription due to unwanted side effects. I'm getting really tired of this....
Yes, my thyroid has been checked, along with everything else. I just have anxiety. Lots and lots of anxiety....
I keep thinking life would be much easier if I could talk, then I wouldn't have to worry about bothering my friends and family with my issues because I could take care of things directly without...
So, I kind of collapsed at work today. I was in a friend's office, but another coworker was also present. Both are super great and understanding. I know the coworker who I don't know really well has...
I just want to add my 'quote of the day' from work today- If you can't see a bright side, polish the dull side...
I have a trusted coworker who I can just make eye contact with and she knows what's going on - just having someone know helps to take the edge off for me. I always carry a tin of altoids with me -...
I'm tired and dizzy, and my doctor kept asking who I was talking to at my appointment yesterday because my jaw is moving involuntarily and I guess it looks like I'm talking? Weird. Obviously, meds...
I was doing so well, I thought. No melt downs since last May. And now I'm struggling to stay positive and hold it together. All the receptionists at the BHI know who I am. I was prescribed an...
The last couple of weeks have been kind of rough in regards to anxiety and medication. I visited a friend today who has known me since 10th grade and is generally very supportive. She spent three...
I'm actually not in a bad place. I am wicked tired and my brain has forgotten how to sleep, and I can't get warm - but I'm happy and loving life. I have the best job ever (received the cutest note...
Misty - I am always cold, and usually shivering. The kids think it's funny that I wear my ski jacket all day inside a heated building. I only feel tired and sick when I am taking meds - which is most...
I would really like to not be tired any more. And the nausea and dizziness is getting old. My doc hasn't had any openings yet. She just had me decrease the dose of the current prescription until she...
I guess I should clarify. 1st, I work in mental health, so it's really not that difficult for a coworker to find out who my doctor is. 2nd, I don't talk so someone else is always making the phone...
So, apparently I was behaving abnormally today. A coworker called my doctor and I was told if I didn't go to the hospital they were sending an ambulance to get me. Which resulted in...another med...
I had an appointment with my psychiatrist Wednesday. She made a med adjustment. I'm still running into things and I can't seem to get warm. I'll give it a few more days. I don't seem to have an...
Hey, hang in there! Anticipating heading for a breakdown just encourages your anxiety to make it happen. Say positive things to yourself - especially when your brain seems to be rapid-firing on...
My week has been full of anxiety and panic. A co-worker friend set a timer to check on me every 3 hours (at work and at home) to make sure I was remembering to eat, and be awake, and be present...and...
After only a week and a half, my intern decided he doesn't want to go into a career in pschology anymore - he said it's not the kind of work he expected it to be. I feel like I'm responsible for...
My whole family came for the holidays. The last of them flew out on Saturday, and I think I had a break down after having to be in complete control for 3 weeks. I spent most of the day yesterday on...
I had the same issues with SSRIs! After taking Cymbalta for only 3 weeks and experiencing intolerable side effects, it took almost 6 months to feel back to my normal anxious self. I've tried 5...
I kept forgetting how to breathe today! I hate that. I'm telling myself it was just a stressful day that would have resulted in high anxiety for anyone, even without a disorder; I had to make two...
My heart has been racing all day. I know I'm fine. My mom brought me lunch and supervised as I put up Christmas decorations. I exchanged books with a friend in the afternoon. Nothing stressful has...
SC - yes, today was the last time I have to take off work for evaluation - so glad! The evaluating doc will send the report over to my psychiatrist who will want to go over it with me at my...
After the final session of my psych eval this afternoon, doc wiped clean all previous diagnoses - I am not bipolar, I don't have OCD, I'm not psychotic, and I don't have any type of mood disorder....
Thanks. I do have a therapist. I have gone through extensive CBT, over and over. I didn't talk to anyone except my brothers until 9th grade. I have come a long way. And I am a counselor. I know all...