Please help me- possible RA symptoms

Hi Eden --

Thanks for checking back in. I'm really glad you've got someone working on your insurance. Hopefully you'll be able to talk to her today. I wish you best of luck in getting coverage.

I'm sorry you're in pain still. Hopefully once you get into a doctor's office, you'll find some meds that control the RA for you. There is hope; Enbrel is doing a great job for me and I feel like I'm, getting my life back!

Take care of yourself and I wish you a calm and relatively pain-free day.

Hi again, Jennie! Glad you found my post (I have many)! My mom died 2 yrs ago now in June, she was 53. She fought lung cancer for 2 and 1/2 yrs before dying... hers also went to her brain at one point, but the radiation shrunk the tumors down enough for them to go away. The cancer in her lungs and a rare side effect from a cancer medication was what killed her.

Wow, we really do relate to one another, huh! I'm soo sorry you struggled so much with seeing your mom suffer... it's an awful awful thing that's beyond words I never had to be in a foster home though, so sorry you experienced that!!!

I've been writing since I was 11, I would say. My poetry is my pride and joy! Gotten me through so many terrible times. It literally has helped save my life. I have a livejournal with all of my poetry thus far (or with a majority of it anyway)... if you're ever interested in reading it, just let me know! It is deeply depressing though and very emotionally-raw, not sugar-coated at all... it isn't for everyone. But if you're into that, I promise you'd love it!

I don't write poems often all of the time- I go through months where I can't get into the mind-frame in order to write. I have very severe moods that last for months at a time, and sometimes, I just don't write. But... I can't picture my life without ever doing it. I will always be a writer.

CAROLE-- Dear,

I hope I don't ever HAVE to be on meds though. I don't like them . My body has bad reactions to everything I put in it; many allergies, too-- I often experience rare side effects, and it's scary! I may not even have RA, I don't know yet. But if I do, do you really have to be on medication? Is that the only option?

I wish I could legally use medical marijuana, honestly! But not in this state...

My fingers have been a bit more flexible again lately (only as of the past 2 days)- they don't look as much like claws... but god, do they still hurt horribly!!!! I don't know what to think...

I'm so glad I have everyone on here at least

Eden

Thanks for the information, Carole.

But unfortunately, I have no choice but to ignore everything going on... Wouldn't you know it, I still have not been able to speak with my caseworker at the county assistance office... I went down there today, waited for hours, but I had another caseworker there look me straight in the eyes and tell me that I'm "most likely not going to be eligible for medicaid." She mentioned about needing life-sustaining medication.

They have to send me a form for my doc to fill out with my health and mental diagnoses on it (it would probably help though if I KNEW everything that was wrong with me)! But even still, she said I may not qualify. Just having Bipolar Disorder alone should allow me some assistance! I can't do anything about any of it and I spend all of my days very suicidal because of the chemical imbalances in my head + being FED UP with the chronic pain... I don't even have any quality of life anymore and this state never helps me! That's what is wrong with this country. They only help irresponsible parents who have kids they can't afford and immigrants. And yet, I was born and raised here and they're just going to wait for me to drop dead, I guess.

I've had it with this system. After I spoke to that woman, I went home crying. I've had it.

But she made copies of all of my documents that they needed... they will give them to my caseworker. I guess it's her say in the end whether i can be eligible or not. I gotta wait for that form for my doctor. Do you think that will help? I don't know what all he has in his charts for me, but he at least has Fibromyalgia, IBS, Bipolar Disorder, along with my history of hospital stays due to mental breakdowns and suicidal behavior.

I'm probably just going to copy and paste this right into a whole new thread, for those who are concerned with me getting health insurance. Thanks, Carole!

Eden

I keep trying......

Thanks, Carole. Hope you're well. How's your family doing?

Eden

Hey, Eden - How are things going?