pain boredom

I know this may seem trivial with all the Pain everyone is in - me included
But I'm Bored
it takes all my strength to simply get up and dressed in the morning then I sit and recuperate
I used to be a very active or busy person and now it is a miracle if I can cook a meal ,
I used to love gardening but cant bend - its odd not being able to bend down you think how many tines you do that in a day then try to figure other ways of doing the task.
I have had memory problems lately so studying or learning for eg a language is out cos I can't remember what I did yesterday !
I get exhausted if I simply walk across a room - no I am serious I have to stop and recuperate,
but my brain is still active and i feel guilty not doing anything
I know all the daytime TV soaps
I know living is a bonus and getting thru the pain is a bonus but sometimes like today I feel so - useless

Ugggh It's been a long time since I've been in your shoes thank God but I will never forget the feeling.
I remember feeling like I'd give anything to have the strength and energy to scrub a toilet and who the hell wants to do that?
TV? I wanted to shoot the screen I hated the repetitious shows and commercials. There was a particular IKEA commercial where a very obnoxious woman would shout to her husband- START THE CAR START THE CAR! as she ran out with her bargains she felt like she stole. My hands were so painful I couldn't use the remote buttons to change the channel.

I remember walking (shuffling to the mailbox) was a pleasant deterrent, taking a ride with my husband during one of his errands and watching the world thru the window felt like an adventure...

Hope you can find some simple pleasures to get you out of your funk

Wishing you all the best and improved health soon!

Can you ask your doctor about physical therapy sessions?
Maybe try a book to help combat the useless feelings...
Can you get on the list for therapy pets? maybe a therapy pet would help...
Or save up the costs for getting a therapy pet...
Just a few things to for you to look into...With you soon to be going into Spring, where we are starting towards Fall/Autumn...Hopefully warmer weather means better days ahead for you...

Just be careful on the beaches, there was another shark attack down there and the whole thing was tragic, as everyone was looking on...so very sad...you need a shark tagging down there so they can tell when sharks are nearby, so people can get a chance to clear the waters...Sharks get tag off Maine and they just tagged two this past week...

Sure hope your feeling better soon...

Hi, Bad Day!
I can (and do) completely empathize!! Let me explain so you can see the correlation. Up until February 2013, I had been working full-time in corporate America, working part-time as a Certified Personal Trainer, working out at the gym 3-5 days per week, volunteering, participating in open water competitive swims as well as mud runs. I had a very healthy social life and loved hosting dinner parties. Oops, forgot to tell you; came out of remission in 2007 and was on a craploads of meds but clearly the meds worked. The pain I had was tolerable.

February 2013; moved to Upstate NY. Began job hunting and started searching for all new docs. Because I did not have consistent care due to the move and having to find new docs, I started going downhill. October 2013, regretfully relented and filed for SSDI.

Fast forward again to January 2015. I am BORED OUT OF MY MIND!! I now see how people that retire become depressed. My days are filled with medical appointments, telephone calls, pharmacy runs and dealing with the increased pain, decreased ROM and mobility. I want to go back to the gym, I want to volunteer and I am determined to make a success of my business. I have my first dinner party in 2.5 years coming up and I don't know if I am going to be able to do it!! I feel as if I am wasting my life and I am only 47.

So, Bad Day, I get it. And please do not feel that what you are experiencing is trivial. You probably feel as if you are existing and not living, right? Living is huge. Is there any sort of volunteering that you can do from home? You might be able to use Skype (free) to participate. I just wanted you to know that what you are feeling is not trivial and that you are not alone.

I truly hope you find a bit of happiness.

Hey Bad- Happy New Year!
I hope you are able to shake off that funk. I know the feeling and it sure makes for unhappiness. :(

Wishing you all the best