Hi, I know how you feel as well. I think some days that there is no way I will be able to keep on working another 20 years with RA. I am employed as a software engineer and have been since coming up with ra. I was previously in underground construction and needless to say I could not continue on with this. My hands have some deformity so pecking a keyboard all day long can be pretty uncomfortable as well.
I have been working full time for 20 years with RA and it has been through the grace of God that I have been able to. Not only that but I have been able to excel in my chosen work even with all the sick days (sometimes months when I have been flared up!) and hobbling through the hallways at work going from place to place. I often wonder how things would have been for me without this disease standing in the way but I then feel so thankful that I have been able to provide a good life for my family and share with others about
RA through my work.
Yesterday, I was feeling quite glum and sorry for myself in the morning and a friend at work in building maintenance stopped me in the hallway to comment that I am looking so much better these days than I have in the past. I thanked him of course but he went on to tell me that he had so much admiration for me and thinks of me often because no matter how bad I seem to be I always smile and do my best at work.
I was very flattered and his words brought me right up out of the morass of self pity I was in.
Ultimately I can claim no credit for this. I believe that he Lord has been with me through all of this thick and thin and it is and will continue to be him who I lean on through times when I just can't seem to go on any longer. I take comfort that through our struggles others see how The Lord works in our lives especially those of us who are sick.
I hope that you are feeling better and that your heart is lifted up because it can be so hard from day to day with this disease. I know how it feels and I am so glad you posted this because it is something many of us deal with on an ongoing basis.
Take care.
Post Edited (Don_D) : 12/13/2014 9:37:11 AM (GMT-7)