Worn out

Been pretty drained lately.  With the chronic GI problems to the issues with me going out and doing stuff then being down for a couple days afterwards it is wearing on me.  I still hurt less than I did, but I am also finding more things stiff and hurting than did before too.  My hands I believe are getting worse.  I went for several days without my meds because no one would call the pharmacy.  I guess they figured I could just wait till my appointment... NOT!  I was hoping to lose weight before I went but diet isn't my only issue.  I needed to be able to exercise and it seems I get punished for doing so.  I am off the neurontin now but I feel it might have been something I needed for other issues like nerve pain and fatigue.  Because ever since I have been off of that I have had major issues with those two things.  Plus the headaches are horrid.  I tapered it down over a months time so I know it wasn't too fast.  My muscle aches are apparently related to the joint pains because since those are improved so are the muscle pains.  I hate the heat and the summer sun though.  I just get so sick with it, but now that I can get out more I want to get out.  I am sort of looking forward to this appointment so that maybe the doc and I can work together to figure things out.  I so much want to lose weight and stop smoking too and I cant seem to do that when I hurt like this.  I eat more smoke more and exercise less when I hurt the most.  We gotta fix this.  I am seriously in need of something to help me feel better I cant go back to the way things were and I cant keep going like this either.

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You said it Erin.. hang in there bloo... Duck