sleep anyone

I am back from my dctors.  I went off Topamax because some people are showing neurological based personality disorders if they take it long term and I was already am having fugue states.  I am going off the Lexapro and back on the Wellbutrin.  I also went off the haldol and onto a mix of 6mg. Risperdal and 10-15mg. Zyprexa.  He also added 45mg. of Restoril at night since I cannot sleep (I take it w/Clonodine .2mg & Deseryl 300mg.) The Restoril didn't help so I think our next shot is an anesthesia capsule or oral liquid drug dosed to knock me out based on bedtime and when I want wake up.   Today is a very bad day. I got my keys taken away after I grabbed a bottle of pills yesterday and while he was bring them from the drug store and tried to take them all  SO today I feel bad and am sore from our stuggle but still alive.  Since the I might be taking an anesthetic, does anyone here do that or have done that?  Did it work?

quietpain- sorry for all my bad spelling

parnate 120

wellbutrin 450

vyvanxe 100

librium  80-120

riperdal 6

zyprexa `10-15

clonodine 0.2

deserly 300

restoril  45

benedryl  300

Did you ever try Sinequan? It's an older a/d. I'm not bipolar but I did have severe insomnia with major depression years ago and it worked great. That was after trying Tylenol 3, Seroquel, Ambien, Deseryl, remeron, etc.

What a lot of changes for one visit. I don't know how you keep it all straight. What a terrible day. I don't know what prompted you to feel the need to take a bottle of pills, but I hope you will feel better soon. You know to call the Suicide Hotline if you ever feel the urge, right? 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)

take care,
serafena