Hello evereyone-
I'm a 31 year old female who was diagnosis with bi-polar earlier this year after a hospital stay. I've have this for way longer than that, but first they told me it was OCD and depression and put me on meds 8 years ago. I have a beautiful 16 month old son who I had to have through a surrogate because I couldn't get off my meds. I have also been married for 4 years to the most wonderful man.
I am now in a horrible depressive cycle after finally stablizing my meds. There have been many changes in my life right now as my husband took a new job which has required more traveling then we thought. I'm also in grad school full time (I don't work.) We now put my son in daycare which I have horrible guilt over, but I know its a great place for him. I have been feeling so horrible and my husband came home yesterday telling me he landed a huge account and its a total big deal. I couldn't even be happy for him and was more upset when he told me he would have to go out of town for 4 days this week. I should be thankful that he has a job and now has security of that job for at least 4 years during a time of economic strain. I know we are blessed. I feel selfish for feeling "Down" and feel like I can't talk to anyone about it because everyone is sick of hearing about my "issues."
I am in therapy and have talked to her about all these issues, but still really hurting. Anyway, just wanted to vent.
Hugs
Z