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Posted 3/11/2009 5:13 AM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone. I found this site today after having a really hard time with my life and zero support. A little about myself. I am a 17 (18 in two month) senior who has been diagnosed with bipolar. I live in a pretty bad area and have NO friends at all. At work, school, and even home. To make a long story short. I'm suffering, bad. Like borderline crazy bad. I've been threatened to be jumped, I have to go to court for losing my temper on someones car, and my life at home is full of nothing but double standards between me and my brother and my mother consistently reminding me of my failures. Even suggesting I kill myself.I'm doing bad. Like I feel like my body is just going to give out and I'll die from all of this pain I'm feeling. It's 1am right now so I don't really have the energy to go into full detail but yeah, it sucks. I know you guys aren't miracle workers but I really do need to be apart of a support group right now, so thanks for taking to time to know me.
Posted 3/11/2009 11:46 AM (GMT 0)
Dear Starch,

I have had an uncle tell me very cruelly to commit suicide. It sounds brutal when this kind of advice comes from family members. You have to remember that your mother and brother are not in a sane frame of mind when they dole such advice to you. They are taking out their negativity and their frustrations on you. You have to focus on getting better and take help from a psychiatrist and a counselor. We are here to provide support in your journey to recovery.

Best,
Sheeba
Posted 3/12/2009 3:03 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Starch,

Welcome to HealingWell and to the bipolar board. I am so sorry to hear about your unsupportive family and lonely living conditions, but I can offer you a board full of caring and responsive people who want to help one another. about 50% of our board has bipolar and the other half are spouses/partners of bipolar people. Everyone is friendly and open. So go ahead, when you feel up to it, tell us what bipolar is like for you, and we are here to listen.

Are you currently getting any sort of treatment? Do you have a psychiatrist? Are you on meds? Do you see a counselor?

serafena
Posted 3/12/2009 3:28 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Starch....welcome. One of the hard parts of living as a BP sufferer, is learning to let things slide. There will always be people in your life who do not understand what BP is, and maybe do not even want to understand. Are you on any meds, do you see a psych? I think therapy would be a big help for you. Once you are medically stabilized, a therapist can help teach you strategies to help you live with this awful thing. Maybe some of the troubles you have gotten into can be helped by learning some new coping strategies, and how to deal with anger and resentment better. Having an unsupportive family can be hard, I hope you find some support here.
Posted 3/12/2009 3:47 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks everyone. I am one medication and attending counseling. Although I've been off my meds for like a month and a half now. I think that's sorta contributes to why I had my little outburst. Anyway, Bipolar for me is sorta confusing. It's like I can tell when my mood is going to change but it's nothing I can do about it. It's been much better then it was when I was younger though. When I was little I had to attend alternative schools because of it but I've worked my way out and have been dealing with it much better.

The only thing though is now I feel as though I'm reverting back to the way I use to be because of my stressful situation. Dealing with being alone and picked on. Criticism at work. Finding a school to go to. My family and thew way they treat me. It's really hard. Right now I'm looking for another psychiatrist to go to because of some problems my mother has had with them and my insurance. So that's why I've been off so long. Hopefully I can find some techniques to help me manage until I can get back on my medication. Again, thanks you guys for your support and I'll try to keep you guys updated.
Posted 3/12/2009 2:56 PM (GMT 0)
Good morning Starch....first of all...I teach at several alternative schools...so when I chat with you I can tell you that they are a real challange...you know that being off your meds is not a good thing...sorry for the nasty family structure you are in right now...seems that you realize how you function when you have a mood swing, and that is a good thing...I got upset at my wife last night for asking me how many cinnimon rolls I ate last week.....what was the point of me going in the bedroom and staying all evening ?....latter I appologized for being stupid....the person above that said to let it go was 100 % correct....we here know of your pain and want you to know that you are not alone....stay strong...make good choices..get on your meds...counseling...and hard work....are some of the keys to loving life....feel free to email me anytime......I am a chaplain that walks and talks by the grace of God......I will pray for you and your family...GBU

{I edited out your email address.  We discourage the use of email addresses in messages to dissuade spammer bots.  If you want to share your email address, put it in your profile, and anyone can find it there.  Thank you! -- serafena}

Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 3/12/2009 4:09:56 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 3/13/2009 12:51 AM (GMT 0)
I never had friends either until i was in my 20s, you're not the only one sweetie. You've done a good thing seeking out others with similar situations to you, you are more than welcome to share things and contact most of the people here...thats what we're here for.

Just keep haning in there, it gets better with time.
Posted 3/18/2009 10:13 AM (GMT 0)
Hi girl, I hope by now things are getting at least a little better for you. I just wanted to talk about one specific thing. The lonliness that comes with this dissorder is gut wrenching but you just have to keep going and learn that you can treat yourself welll and be optomistic that when you get well, you will feel like making the right kind of friends that will support you, I have been married 20 years, my husband works long hours and we travel alot so I have to change drs alot and be totally alone all day until about 6 or sometimes later. When he gets home, he doesnt want to hear more problems. I talked to him last night and he was not as supportive as he has been all our married life which devistated me. Making me feel more alone. My therapist I think cares and sometimes we just have to depend on people that we are seeing to help us till things turn around. So take good care of yourself and you are not alone here and thats a good thing.
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