Well hello and thanks for taking the time to read this.
My name is John and I have been diagnosed with depression, I have had it for about
4 years now but diddnt actually go to get help till july 2008. I have decided to come on this site to talk to people because I'm starting to scare myself. I am on perscribed citalopram 20mg but for the past month or two they havent been working. My moods are getting worse and I am beginning to think I have Bipolar, but dont want to go to see my gp because he might think im crazy! Ive been waking up because I have been thinking my mam or brother has been shouting my name but really havent (Its happened about
20 times now.) I am either costantly in a low or high mood but have not stopped taking my medication. Every penny I get i spend it on alcohol or crap things I dont need. And I have been constantly argueing with my relatives. My mum and dad are low on money at the minute and they keep going on at me for not helping them out and thinking about
myself but I just dont seem to care and blow it all on myself I couldnt care less if i get shot out of my home or die really.
A few nights ago i went out with friends and I was in an extreme hyper mood all night but when I arrived home I decided to ... so it never really worked.
I have carried on taking my medication but there not helping.
So I just thought id post this in the bipolar section to see what people think, if you think I should go and see my gp about
it? And do you think i have it?
Thanks for reading
John
(I edited your post to bring it in line with forum rule #1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use or exchange, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted. -- serafena)
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