Advice needed

This is my first time posting on any site, so here goes I am 35 years old I have been divorced for 6 years. My ex was very abusive my daughter was 2 months early as a result. I stayed with him for 6 years after her birth . We then bought a bar and our marriage went down from there. Imagine that. Anyway over the course of the last 7 years I have been on zoloft ,paxil. many other drugs to help sleep,cope with the threats he always threw at me. Now I have not heard form him in a year THANK GOD but my meds have had a lot to do with how I deal. I am also a Hospice nurse which does not help depressed people at all. But does take my mind off of reality I guess. This last year has been the worse I have 2 blown disk and many other back problems due to my job and lifting patients. Due to that I am on medical leave per company orders. I see work Dr's often to resolve this problem. Six months ago I decided to go off of my meds. Prozac and Xanax cold turkey NOT a good idea by the way. I have lost my home my ability to take care of my daughter and myself due to my medical leave. Whhen I went off my meds I ended up in the hospital for seizures due to going off of them. Now I am back on them and feel no better. My ieal day would be just to fade away or sleep I know this is terrible but I have lost my self along the way. My Dr. tells me I am bipolar and I just don't know how to cope or even how to live. I live with a boyfriend who doesn't understand he wants to throw my meds. away stating I don't them. I would not live here if I could work and take care of myself and my daughter he helps none. He acts like I am here to serve him which makes my mood swings worse. Please tell me where to turn.

Sherri

Sherri, just checking and hope you are o.k. Mary

Sherri honey, It will be okay if you can stay on your meds, and get away from your mentally abusive husband... I know that this may be hard to hear... It's hard for me to say to myself when I finally admit to myself when I get with a guy and stick with him making excuses for him. But the truth of the matter is there are government agencies that can help you and your daughter in this situation. If you are going to therapy, taking your medication, and the two of you are able to get away from him, please do so, he isn't good for your health. I too am bipolar, I fight for my sanity all the time and need projects to do all the time to keep my mind from going out of control and releasing anger and going manic on others when they don't deserve it. then there are times that I am perfectly fine, or I am depressed and cannot lift a finger, but I try to keep myself goal oriented .... for you that would be yourself and your daughter.

No person needs to be treated as they are a slave... He should be more understanding. Maybe he should go to some of your therapy sessions... Manic Depressives/Bipolars, are quick to change moods. We are in a manic or mania phase where we feel like it is all going to come to an end and we are in the center of the cyclone that is going to end it... then we go into deep depressions... no matter how good we are at faking it in public. We become good actors. We hide a lot within. This hurts us more in the long run because it only fuels the cyclone.

Please honey, get help... Ask your Dr about it the next time. His office can get you the connections that you need to get started.

Good Speed.