I Love Ms BP

hello i love this girl and longtime friend of 20 yrs

she got dumped last yr and rebounded onto me she is really depressed was suicidal
our relationship ended i was more babysitting her but fell in love all the same
and i said some hurtful words she was doing my head in too
:(

4 months later
she comes back saying she love me and wants it to work
still depressed with self esteem issues

we had a nasty fight 2 nights a go
as she wanted space to sort herelf out but wanted me in her life
which i tried to do but it hard to be with her and not be with her

anyway we still do some gym classes and i got angry and said she is
selfish and you cant treat friends like this and you'll loose them
i was not calm either
i said this before last year too

i was not strong enough this time
and regret everything i said in haste

is it normal for a partner to loose it due to BP girldfriend

she said i am selfish and it all my fault

i care for and try to supprot her so much but i made a mistake and it hurt her
i was feeling unloved and it got me angry and i said nasty things

i dont know if it me thats wrong her or the BP or starting Meds

what really upset me is when i feel we are happy and everything is working she
just end it with me

this has been going on for a while on and off
ring me when she sad

i sent her flowers today to say im sorry
but i dont think she will forgive me this time


i love her so much
and everyone says walk away
it hard to stop careing
i am going to go no contact this time around
becuase i dont want to upset her
i regret that i said things so much

i want her to be well so we can be happy if there is ever another chance