Denied on the initial level and denied again on the review of the initial level and I now have been waiting for 29 months to get SSDI. I had a hearing with a ALJ judge back in May, however, I have had alot of substance abuse issues throughout my early teens up until 2007. At that time he stopped me and my attorney and asked me If I believed that my substance abuse was part of the reason I was missing work, and I responded "No". He then scheduled me with a CE Pyschiatric Examiner. Still confused why he did not schedule me to see a Physical CE Examiner as I have CMPS. At any rate, I have Biploar I, Boderline Personality Disorder, Mood Disorder (NOS), Anxiety, Depression & Chronic Myofacial Pain Syndrome. I recently saw an appointed CE Pyschiatric Examiner. She felt that I had no issues in the area of understanding and remembering simple instructions, carrynig out simple instructions, the ability to make judgements on simple work-related decisions, understand and remember complex instructions, carry out simple instructions was (mild) and the ability to make judgements on complex work-related decisions was (none). Now on the second part where my ability to interact appropriately with supervision, co-workers, and the public, as well as respond to changes in the routine of work settings, affected by impairments were all (moderate). I find this obsurd to be honest and not to mention I complain of horrible anxiety and depression to my Pyschologist and he always documents it as mild. My medications cause me to be overly drowsy and sleep from 12-16 hours a day at times and I am nauseaus and vomit almost every day, im constantly depressed and anxious and recently been having episodes of panic attacks as well. Now my question is, since the CE said none, mild and moderate to my functional ability which to me is still confusing how they can base anything off of seeing you one time. My regular treating Psychologist is only putting mild and is for some reason refusing me to see my medical records which is making me wonder if he doesn't believe me since every medication I have tried or been taking for both my pain and mental conditions do not seem to affect me or help me much in anyway. So, I am wondering with this documentation from the CE Examiner and my treating physician am I pretty much S.O.L? I am also having a hard time getting my treating physicians to fill out RFC forms, which I been reading can do a lot of justice for you in the long run. Also, I have had some previous Pyschiatric evaluations in the past and have seen them on a few occasions, unfortunately, my insurance does not cover those type of visits and only covers the ones to a Psychologist who is able to prescribe medication. I wish I could seek the help but worry about getting bills that I can not pay as well im having a hard time paying for my medication copays due to no income from not being able to hold employment. I have been off of work this last time since Dec. 2010 due to my pain interferring the worst with my work and daily activities where my job said that they were going to fire me and documented this on a written warning in which I gave to my attorney. I therefore quit instead because I was being hopefully that at sometime in the future I would be able to go back there as a seasonal employment if everything permits accordingly. I also filed bancruptsy a little over a year ago because I am unable to hold employment and work without being so miserable and just wanting to crawl in a hole and die. This is so frustrating, I have an attorney but I have no idea what to do anymore. The more I read the more it says everything has to be severe. Well it is severe to me but I don't know why they don't think so. They don't live a day in my shoes. Please someone shed some insight on this for me. I have been unable to hold jobs all my life, working at most a year, sometimes get a job and that day quit and never show up, get rude with customers and have told Supervisors off and can not get along with Co-Workers. My pain alone is so unbearable that I cannot sit or stand for prolonged periods of time and any repetative motions make it worse. I do not partake in any activities outside of my home and seclude myself in my house or bedroom where I live with my mother. I am 30 years old and this is an embarrasment to me but this is my life and I just can't keep jobs and when I did work I was missing 4 day's a month at minimum and that doesn't count the many times I would go home. I have worked In-Home Health Care, Customer Service, Factory Assembly, and Fast Food, Janitorial & Housekeeping and I've had about 13 jobs since the age of 17 to now which I will be going on 31. Thank you in advance for any information, if there are SSDI stories about cases and how you won it and how long it took, please include that as well. Please include any information as to what I can do to win this. I can't wait another year, this is stressing me out and making my anxiety and depression a lot worse then it already is.