Challenge of life

I am new to this site.Someone might be on the same situation as i do and could help or give me advise about dealing with a bipolar husband.I am a foreigner who got married with american man.I got married at young age,we have 16 years age difference.nevertheless i didn't mind it because i love him for who he is and he is good to me and tried to be a good man.At his first visit to my country to see me everything went good.We are both happy and got along to each other.But the second time was almost got me a cold feet to turned down the marriage proposal.However,i decided to get married with him,i knew that it is gonna be rough and tough but i would rather to be with him than not at all...its kinda stupid they say but i am happy to be with him despite of everything and what other people say.

Though i am a nurse i take good care of sick people that is my job description but it is hard to apply your learned knowledge and skills when it comes to your own situation.I am having a hard time to deal with my husband illness every time i see my him in his down moments it kills me,i found my self crying and to the point that if i could only give him part of my health i will do it because i really do want him to be functional as he could be.We been in up's and down in our relationship,we have everything you can imagine from simple to major misunderstandings or arguments.He make me so mad one time to the point that i want to leave him. Sometimes i found asking my self am i happy?why i am still fighting for this man?why i am still here knowing that i do always cry and being emotionally hurt,but i always end up having an answer which came from my heart,that the only reason that i am staying till now is because i love him and i married him for who he is through thick and thin,through riches and poorest. (BTW i had a courthouse wedding very simple one but it feels so good and so solemn).

Aside from mood swings he is also a compulsive gambler.One time he lost almost 7k dollars.I am upset knowing that we needed that money but just one blink of eye its all gone.I was asking him to give me 100 dollars he never did i just didn't mind it since he paid the majority of bill that time.He been hospitalized last July at psychiatric hospital that was so hard for me because of the stress that it brought to me knowing he will be gone for that long.Now,he is planning to see if he can undergo a ECT (electron convulsive therapy) chances are 50-50 for prognosis considering the finances it is expensive for 6-12 therapy for a month which we don't have right now.But if it will really help him to recover i will let him undergo and try my best to find some money to pay for therapy expenses.

I'm hoping that everything would be fine and god guide us.When it comes to tough times i always closed my eyes,prayed and always think that god give me this trials because he believe that i can do and bare it and he have the reasons for everything which will benefit us for better.

Hope to hear any advises for you guys.It will help a lot.

have so many dreams he is a very outgoing person.Sometime i go with him fishing,walking and even hunting to have time shared together and also as part of his therapy.

Hi Whisker,
I am also dealing with a bipolar spouse. I can understand and relate to what you are going through.
I am sorry that I cannot offer very good advice, since I am in much need of it myself! But I do want to tell you that you are not alone and I am sending you a big virtual hug ((WHISKER))

:)

Ohio_Dawn said...
Hi Whisker,
I am also dealing with a bipolar spouse. I can understand and relate to what you are going through.
I am sorry that I cannot offer very good advice, since I am in much need of it myself! But I do want to tell you that you are not alone and I am sending you a big virtual hug ((WHISKER))

:)

HI ohio dawn,

Thank you so much for that...It give me a little bit of relief knowing i am not alone.It's jut really so hard.I never dealt this kind of problem before which giving me hard time to cope up.Yet, i did took care of people with this kind of illness but when it come to your love on who had it,its seems so hard...I really do want him to be better....Even sometime he say some words that i don't like im still here hoping and praying that everything will be alright.Any ways i am still thankful to god that he gave me this man even though sometime he make me cry because i can tell that he still cares(when he is not on depressed) and i have a wonderful parents-in law.I wish this kind of illness never existed.It makes me weak and emotionally depressed.