So much going on...

I feel I'm leaning on the manic side, which scares me.  It isn't nearly as bad as my worst manic episode, and I don't think (or feel) it will get that way, but I can't seem to sit still or relax.  I am constantly checking for job openings, checking my e-mail over and over again, I unpacked/cleaned/organized my extra bedroom non-stop for about 4 hours yesterday morning, getting little sleep, and unable to take naps (which I normally love to do), and when I get something in my head that I want to do I have to do it right away (does that make sense?). 

Been awake since 6AM this morning, I feel so tired, but I know my body isn't going to let me nap.  Maybe I'll take a xanax to relax me?  I'm sure my coffee isn't helping. 

Thanks for reading, there is so much more to say, but I suppose I will be done for now.

- Jenn

I identify with your insomnia and the compelling need to act out  thoughts soon as they come into my head.

I am so sorry that you have recently lost your job - i hope that you find one real soon - but i pray that you put your health first and consider a brief respite from the stress of emloyment issues.  Give time some time comes to mind.

I am not speaking trite plattitudes. I have recently been advised by my pdoc and others on my care team that my bipolar is such that it is unsafe for me to work and that I should retire on health grounds.  I absolutely love my job as Care Supervisor working with children and young people.  But love carries responsibility and responsibility for me means that I do not place the children at risk and listen to the people who have my welfare at heart.  I am so very sad but in life you just have to hurt untill happier days return

Hope this helps.  Take Care - Keep sharing.

Peter