Amazing

Hello,

I have recently been diagnosed with Bipolar II and am working towards getting on the right medications.  Went through a period where I thought I was "all better" and stopped taking one of my medications.  Many tears and arguments with my fiance later I am happy to report I have gotten back on it and as starting to feel better.  Still struggling with guilt of what I have put my fiance through (nearly causing an end to our relationship) but am convinced I can beat this...I will not let this take control of me any longer.  Overall, just wanted to say that I stumbled across this forum and it gave me a lot of hope...made me feel much less broken and alone.

The most troublesome part in my voyage this far is that my fiance tries so hard to understand me...I think too hard some times...for instance I called him very excited during my lunch about stumbing across this...that I would have a place to feel like I fit in finally...where people can understand because they have felt similar things...his response was "hunny I understand where you are coming from and I listen to you"...and then followed up by..."I dont think you realize....blah blah blah...I don't think you understand...blah blah blah..."  I have a hard time not tuning him out and feeling like he is talking down to me...I'm needing a reality check....is this the oversensitive not yet properly medicated me shining through or is it fair of me to suggest that he phrases things in a way that doesnt come across as demeaning as I feel that does (wondering if I am being too nitpicky...I have had a tendancy to start an argument or ten that way)...

Thanks Mogs,

Really needed that today..its been an uphill battle from the time my alarm went off.