Need help to understand

I need help to understand if there is something wrong with me. For years I have always felt not that I was crazy but couldn't control my emotions. Sometimes if something upsetting happened I would feel like i was on top of the world and could do anything really strong then would usually crash and feel miserable. The most recent events were with my husband. I love him with all my heart but I can't seem to make things work. We are always fighting and while I always feel that I am justified and in the right he finally decided to leave saying I don't treat him good, that I am always arguing with him for no reason and telling him he needs to move out. I always say things to him I don"t mean, and I don't mean to behave like this. This past Thursday he moved out while I was at work, which has forced me to deal with my issues. I have an appointment with my family doctor to speak with someone and look into getting a diagnosis. I have spoke with someone at one of the mental health office who recommended me to speak with my family doctor, but she said the symptoms sound a lot like Bipolar. I would like to hear from other spouses to find out what it is like to live with their bipolar spouses, and some of the things that happen in the relationship. Thanks for any help.

Awww...I understand what is happening in your life. You need to deal with issues with your physician first and foremost. Once you figure out what is going on in your head then you can work on the treatment and get a better handle on it. Then you can work on getting back together with your husband. It might not take very long at all. If you beg your husband back without treatment your just going to continue the cycle, but I think you understand that. I wish you all the best. Take care.

My best friend is bi-polar. He and his wife have had issues, but after he was with his doctor, they prescribed him a mood stabilizer, and since things have been really good between them, as long as he takes his medication. I agree that if you dont get help, the cycle with your husband will continue. I would send a email to your husband, let him know that you are going to get treatment, and that you love him. A lot of things come out during treatment, and it can be very hard because it forces you to see things in ways you never have. Just get through it, and your life will return to being happy!

Good luck!

Heh, it sounds just like my girlfriend and I.. Shes is diagnosed with a Bipolar Disorder.. I love her and i try beeing as good as I can to her, she has periodic up and downs, and a single word ment good, she can take as a bad thing and get DOWN. Here life is not easy so that is not helping either.. she has always been like this, and have had several relationships gone wrong, when it is BAD it is bad, shes is using the knife regulary, and for me its confusing because I dont understand why. She doesent have a lot of friends and, she got anxiety issues, and needs to be drunk to be capable to see new people, alchole is also used to treat her "down-periodes" after a suicide attempt she desisded to search help, and was at a clinic for 3 weeks, this was NOT a good clinic.. they did not take here seriously, and she checked out, I demanded her to see a physician, and a doctor, and shes now on Remeron, its all better now, during christmas I was told to get the hell out, several times.. she came back regretting.. I was afraid that this could ruin our relationships so i asked here to talk to me, share here feelings, that was not easy for here.. BUT it helped a lot, our main problem was that i didnt ounderstand WHY and got mad, now i KNOW.. and its just so much easier! Shes on the path to recovery, after 10 years with problems.. That beeing said, we have tried everything, even force here to be inside, when we were by her door trying to calm here down, because she was going to do something stupid.. but i does not work, you have to see it yourself and search for help. We (me and here family) tried everything for here.. but in the end it were herself who found the solution.. forc a person with this problems were not the right path, she had to ounderstand and do it by herself. You got drugs, and are willing to seek help? Then you are on a good path.. but to talk about the problems was our key, I hope everything works out for you :)