Weekend Check in Thread

I've been in a pretty bad state lately. But today wasn't so awful. At least I got dressed in non-dog walking clothes and went to get more dog food and a new harness for my puppy.

I caved on my diet and got starbucks. I swear this is some caffeine left in their decaf coffees. I was all squirrely after drinking it and then ate MORE bad food.

But I've had some nice chill out time with my husband watching movies.

I need to break out of this cycle. I wait for things to improve (lose weight, organize work space, have healthy relationships), but I can't make things perfect 'enough' any more. I think I saw things as perfect enough when I wasn't medicated and had hypomania/mania. But now I just need to accept where I am & roll with it

Sorry you've had a shock, Bill. I hope you'll recover from it quickly.

Forever 7, I was so happy to hear you say that you've accepted that we're just human--not perfect--and that we don't aim for perfection anymore. That's such a huge burden lifted from one's heart when that acceptance comes along. I know that it's difficult getting to that point, but that's the only way to go--in my view.

Underwent a sleep apnea test this weekend with 25 sets of wires all over the body and two straps across the chest and waist. The technician wondered why I couldn't get to sleep soon enough. Lol. Won't know the results until later in the month, but think it was all unnecessary to start with. Am home today just relaxing and loving it.

Take care, everyone.

It's Genetic

Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 2/12/2012 3:32:28 PM (GMT-7)

I got a *little* bit carried away and ripped the wallpaper out of the kitchen and dining room. It looks 100x better with the yellow adhesive papepr backing on the walls. I've decided to paint the rooms yellow. Very cheerful and it looks bigger! My fiance didn't want to do the walls but I insisted that it was necessary. I told him, laughing, that he would come home someday and the wallpaper would be gone, lol. I didn't really plan to do it today. I was looking at the edge trying to estimate how difficult it would be to remove and riiiippp! Whoops, no going back now!

I got a cold. Icky RUNNY nose that makes me sneeze a lot. Ick. Not uncomfortable so much as inconvenient.

I am hoping my fiance isn't too angry and that we can go grocery shopping together tonight.