Feeling Crappy

My brother, girlfriend, baby and 13yo just left from a week long visit.
Luckily I was able to have my son drive them in to the city to look around and then to the airport. I was sick with anxiety about having to do that task. And really no one seems to understand. Anyway they 'natter' at each other the whole time. They fight about food all of the time. I am not used to having a baby crying in the house.
One day my brother woke me up 2 hours early to show me the baby. We did work that out. I found out that my niece thought I made a very negative phone call to her.
That really hurt. Why would she think I would feel that way about her? The whole family is divided in to 2 camps, between my brothers girls and my brothers girlfriend. Tons of tension and all of these people are coming to my house (my brothers house, I just live here) for 10 days over the 4th of July. Currently neither camp is even speaking to each other.
I am trying to come up with ideas to take care of my self. I will not have a bedroom. I probably will sleep in my car. I will park my car so that I can always get away. We take turns making dinner, so I am not totally responsible for that task. But I always do the finish up from all 3 meals, because the mess makes me nuts. (oh I mean nutter :)
I need to: get 8 hours of sleep, take my med's regularly, eat well, take a shower at least every 3 days, avoid getting into conflict, take a walk every day, realize that, and act accordingly that my 2 children are really the only 2 people for whom I am responsible.
To top it off, tomorrow my daughter has to drive me to the city for a repeat mammogram. The closer the time gets, the more anxious I get.
Thanks for listening to me whine.

When the tension gets bad...go out for a walk...as soon as you feel it coming on. Perhaps, even set up some things that you 'must do' every day to get out of the house. Like therapy, errands, a friend who is sick and desperately needs you...you can make this up and pretend it is someone else...but it is really you! I know I tell a white lie or two but hey...you really are taking care of a sick friend. Also, keep your words light and polite. Don't get swept into the drama. I usually put a shield of white around myself for protection and I say the serenity prayer a lot! Also it,sounds like you have
lowwwww expectations. That is good. Think of the worse things that can happen and if anything nice occurs it will be like a gentle river flowing through your day! Like a surprise.

Keep talking to us too!

Post Edited (red lightening) : 6/7/2012 4:47:08 PM (GMT-6)