No problem, Kitty - I really had a feeling you just made a typo!!
I am speaking from experience as well - it started out as just socially, then just a glass or two of wine after work, then, realized I felt really bad the next day, but another glass of wine made it feel better. And so it went, until was drinking a litre and a half of straight vodka a day. Blacking out, lost two years of my life. I finally went to detox (incredibly depressed too, duh) and that was 3 years ago, and I haven't had a drop since. I am not even tempted. when I think back to how bad I felt and looked, totally worthless for anything, it makes me shudder. I cannot believe I let that happen, but it really sneaks up on you. That's why I am so passionate about BPs drinking, with or without meds.
I hope you didn't think I was being harsh on you - that was not my intention, just wanted that girl to get the idea, that's all!