Posted 3/21/2013 5:23 AM (GMT 0)
My wife had a hard time dealing with my disorder. I would come home every day from work (by the way I work nights...she doesn't), make a meal and head to the living room to watch t.v. . I will stay there on the couch sometimes for hours watching t.v. or I would fall asleep. I started out going to bed early on in our marriage, but I slowly moved my time later and later and later. I even had days of mania where I just couldn't sleep. So, she wanted me to see a shrink...I thought she had problems, not I. The doctor asked me a lot of questions and my wife added her observations. The doctor came to the conclusion that I was B/P with episodes of mood swings, emotional instability, impulsivity, adhd and ocd. Well, I'm on all these med's now and trying to make this work for me...a along in denial of my condition. My wife ends up taking med's too, so she could deal with my condition. She called them her happy pills. For years the doctor tweeked my med's where I'm now some what balanced. A few weeks now since she has moved out and it's really hard not seeing her. We speak over the phone and text too. She call's it a trial separation...I call it agony. She's taken almost all her things along with my travel trailer. She needs the trailer to keep her expenses down...it's cheaper than renting an apartment. Well, I will just have to see how this plays out. I've been missing work because of all of this. I send her a different poem every day about how I'm missing her. The loneliness and the absence of desire to do things. I bought this lap top to make my life a little easier and because it's better to than the cell phone when paying bills. I know that my life will go on, but to where shall it take me? It's unknown. But, I like to know how others dealt with this? Did their spouse ever return? Did this disorder cause other friendships to dissolve? What did it take for YOU to get through each and every day?