Healing Will Take Me Away from HW a Little

When I crash I crash spectacularly and I crashed spectacularly, the worst day being 14 Feb. In the past week I have hooked up with a "healing buddy". We had set what we think in a healthy routine that suits us both and has made it flexible. We have set it up and shared it on google calendar. Each day we do an hour trauma work in the beginning of the day when we have the best and most resources to cope. A lot of healing is coming from these sessions so far. We are both finding the new healthier routine challenging, and we both figure that is the sign we are doing it properly. If it didn't take us out of our comfort zone, we would not be changing in the way we both want to. In the afternoon we review the previous 24 hours and plan for the the upcoming 24 hours. At night we do a joint meditation before heading off to bed. This is a trial to see if people who have been unable to heal independently can heal in a safe, supportive and gently communicative friendship. Both of us had the bonding with our mothers severely damaged albeit for different reasons. If it works, we will let you know, because there are a lot of treatment resistant people walking around. This little experiment will drain some of my energies away from HW but I do hope to remain loosely connected. I may not be in chat regularly at 8pm nor will I reply to posts as consistently. Just wanted to let you know that it is a positive endeavour that is pulling me away for the moment. It will lessen in intensity as time goes on. Cheers

Yes UA,

I know you keep us all tucked under your wing so gently and lovingly, I thought it would be good to tell you what is happening with me, so you aren't wondering.

My new routine is exhausting - relaxing is the most exhausting off all coz it is the hardest to do lol. I am having anxiety from having my routine changed but it is a change worth the short term discomfort. I have my pdoc and RN and my carer visiting me at home tomorrow. It will be a big day, without even leaving home!!!

Yes, Kitt, the GP saying I was psychotic because of the specialists prognosis was a real kick in the guts. As you know the prognosis was very hard for me to bear - to then be negated and abused by a GP because of it sent me very close to the edge. I have a new GP who used to study under the metabolic specialist handling my case. I trust that she has a little more understanding of his ways - and that she will work in with all my medical and allied health professionals - and synthesise their sometimes divergent views - rather than go off on unsubstantiated tangents like the other GP. Chalk it up to experience and carry on hey! Sending you warmth and love and serenity to deal with all you have to deal with. You are a very special human and the world is so lucky to have you in it. Love, Jade xo <3

I have - it may just take the server a bit of time to register the change ;)