Am I over medicated ?

I am on a lot of meds...I am on this current med cocktail:

Lamictal 300mg.
Topamax 200mg.
Wellbutrin 300mg
Seroquel 350mg
Geodon 3 blue and white capsules per day can't remember dosage
Klonipin 3mg
Ambian 10mg

I have bipolar 1, panic and anxiety disorders, bpd, recovering alcohol

I have gained 25,pounds and I feel dull and unexciting and like nothing will be fun again. I feel like I'm wasting my life away sitting on the couch watching rented western movies from the library. I'm not depressed. I get things done. My sleep is normal. Everything is so normal I can't stand it. I feel drugged during the day due to the twice daily 50mg seroquel tabs. I am not lazy but I don't ever feel up about anything. I hate this. Which pill should I cut out to give me a bit of a higher mood. I can't stand these doldrums.

Hi ChristianSoldier!

Luv UR name.. It's a very distinctive idea, has many positive beliefs attached & history in just 2 words. Also says a lot about how positive, bright & hopeful you are... Absolutely Brilliant !

I don't feel qualified to answer UR question, I can seriously relate to it on so many levels...however, I would ask UR doctors that same very important question. If u have to ask it in the first place ... Then there is a lot substance to it!

Keep a daily diary on how u feel, like what you expressed above.... for a few weeks. Then the next dr visit u can go over it for a better professional evaluation to help answer UR question.

Perhaps in the mean time, maybe getting out for a Nature walk with positive people or a pet can open doors in the heart & mind. The smells of spring in the air. All the positives that come with the hugs from of a pet & caring for one is very openly rewarding. Just to give a pup a snack is a lesson in happiness! Any pet is always up lifting.

Volunteer in UR community there are many needy positions open, & fulfilling to help others in need.

Do u go to regular AA meetings? Finding a good one can be tricky.
If you know of a good group .. that may be a way for letting out some things UR stuck in & others that can help u grow.
Outings, hiking, walks in nature always opens new doors.

Listen to UR fav music. Join a club of UR interests, gardening, training animals,volunteer at the pet humane society, painting or volunteering/Take meals to the sick & shut-ins.

Movement brings so many things to the heart, mind & spirit. Fight the good fight, u r worth every moment.I hear it in UR post....

Perhaps a class at a nearby college in a subject u like can motivate
other pathways in UR life to find a sunny day & leave behind the cloudy days.

Do the work....pull up the curtains to a bright sunny day. Find UR way & push thru the doldrums. Learn the coping skills to manage UR life lost to alcohol. UR on the path to recovery. It can be taken back. Rise up and take it back in small increments. Little by little. It is UR choice. UR strong & powerful, I can sense it in UR post.

UR the only one who cares enough about UR life to find a path for change. U know the drill... It's like a journey.... keep the trail and UR imagination open to what makes U tick. It is a never ending process & full of surprises adjustments, & learning experiences.....Trust in ur self....U have been thru so much. Don't stop.. Keep moving...In time u will look forward to UR future, health healing, peace & happiness will follow! Is there a job in UR future?

I hope & pray you will always listen to the voice of reason in UR head & make the right choices. Never listen to that voice that tries to sabotage every effort u take. U know what to leave behind & what is necessary to take. Positive vs. Negative...Time does heal & time will help u move forward.
God Bless.

Peace, Luv & healing.

Greetings ChristianSolider,

A journal is an excellent tool, this will help your doctor to see where patterns of concern arise and then how to help you stay balanced.

I have been down the road of trying to modify my usage of meds and when I crashed it was awful. Took me three weeks to where my desire for food returned and then find the solace of deep sleep; learn from my tragic foolish act. DO NOT stop taking your meds for any reason.

Chotti has given you some excellent advice, take baby steps as you walk forward. It takes a lot of courage to say: 'I am not happy with how I feel. What can I do to improve my life conditions?' Sitting on the couch can become addictive and I admire your desire to DO MORE than just sit and watch time fly by.

Be well, my friend.

Christian, you are not a loser. You are a very nice and wonderful person. You are just going through a rough patch hence these negative feelings. Please know that we are glad to have you. We are happy you are here with us

I think you should attempt the quilt although you can't sew too good. You will just be doing it for you and to help make you feel better. It's a good idea. Please do it. It can be fun...

I hope your doc will be able to fit you in soon.

In the mean time, if you feel like you need to talk to someone, please see below for Crisis Information:

• If you think you may have a medical emergency, call your doctor or 911 immediately.
  
  
• If you believe you may be suicidal, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) immediately, or consult their website at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org. They are available 24/7 for anyone in suicidal crisis in the United States.
  
  
• Don't forget to make use of other sources of support that you may have, such as:
  
  
  
  • Friends and family
    
  • Colleagues
    
  • Counselors
    
  • Clergy
    
  • Other community members
    
  • Support workers
    
  • Other healthcare professionals
    
  • Crisis center in your area.
  
  

Please also feel free to check out our resources where you will be able to find more information as well as coping techniques:
www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=13&m=350839

Please know that were are here for you. I hope thing will get better and you will feel better soon.

UA

Yesterday I smashed a couple of old coffee cups into the side of a cast iron bathtub that was stuck in the weeds alongside the cottage. It was a stupendous release...like shooting a rock thrown high in the air with a cowboy pistol...went into a million pieces with the sound of fireworks.

Thanks for your support. Back on meds. Stable and feeling better and blah. Going to pdoc Monday. My boyfriend is in the psyche ward this week and that is causing me stress. I saw him today and he is getting much better.

It's pouring rain and I'm sitting in the Denny's parking lot copping their wifi sence I'm too poor to afford Internet!

Took my boyfriends mom to visiting hours at psyche ward...she'd 85...and spry as a young chick...went to hot dog world after...her favorite. She's teaching me how to make the quilt.

Y'all really made me feel cared for at a time when I hated myself. This site is a lifesaver and I mean that literally. When I read what I wrote before its hard to believe I was feeling that bad. And today after what y'all said my mood has gotten much better. Thanks for helping me out.

CS....

So very happy to hear u r feeling much better the clouds have passed luv the coffee cups, a great idea. Good release. I will remember that one.

Hope UR boyfriend will be better soon. Very kind of u to help his mom, and in turn a new quilt is in UR hands, creative new talents and so much more.

U had a lot going on and u got it all together. You did a great job.
Take care sweetheart... Always thinking and praying for u . U r a kind bright and gentle spirit! xxxxooooxxxx

Peace & Healing