Thanks for the welcome. We started dating in Nov, got along great and really hit it off. She told me she wasn't seeing anyone else and I wasn't either and haven't been at anytime since. She told me that she has anxiety disorder and depression early on, and that she'd also been diagnosed bipolar, but does not believe that she is. She said she was on med's for a while, but stopped taking them and hasn't been on med's for a year or so I believe. I fell in love with her and told her "I love you" for the first time in Feb and she told me she loved me too, many times after. She said the sweetest things to me, telling me I was the nicest guy she'd ever met, she'd never been treated so well by a guy, she wants us to grow old together and that she wanted to have a baby with me some day.
We found out she was pregnant in early March, it was unplanned, but we were both very happy and excited. This will be my first child and I have always wanted to be a father. She stopped talking to me for a week, wouldn't see or speak to me and only response to text was "leave me alone" and things like that in early April. She changed her relationship status on FB and then finally told me she lied to me and herself both and doesn't love me and never did. I have been nothing but supportive and told her even if she didn't want us to be together as a couple I would always be there for her and always be there for our child and be the best father possible. She went so far as to tell me the baby was not mine, that she had cheated, and she would be moving back to Alabama (we live in Illinois). She made threats to keep the baby away from me and said lots of terrible things. She soon after told my best friend and later me, that she never cheated and the baby was mine. She later told me she has no intention of keeping the baby away from me and admitted that she knows I will be a great father. I have tried giving her space when she asked for it while trying to be there and be supportive as well. I have told her that I want us to be together and raise our child as a family. She tells me she wants that as well, but then goes back and forth whether or not she wants to be with me or not. She gives me hope then takes it away again on a regular basis. I had planned on going to the appointment to hear the baby's heart beat and then she told me she didn't want me to go. We haven't seen each other since April 17, when I gave her the things she'd left at my house back. Since then we've made plans multiple times to see each other and she always backs out, comes up with a reason or excuse not to or no shows. She recently revealed that she was seeing someone else at the same time when we got together, but claims they never had sex. This was a guy she'd had an on and off fling with for 3 yrs. apparently. She claims she stopped seeing him after we "made it official" Jan. 1st but ran into him at a bar in Feb, they talked, she gave him a ride home and he kissed her. At some point later on she admits she went to his house and they "talked and cuddled". She admits that a couple weeks ago they went driving around talking and ended up having sex. This has all hurt me very badly and been very hard. Since then she's apologized and told me she's ashamed and embarrased for all she's said and done and for hurting me and wants to try and make it work, but she still won't see me and is very guarded and reluctant to commit to anything. I don't know what she wants or if she even knows what she wants. There are other factors in play, biggest being the past and current issues with the father of her first child who has custody of their daughter and was apparently mentally, verbally and sometimes physically abusive to her. She has been scared that i'm going to try to take her child away like he has. I've reassured her all along I have no intentions of that and want us to be together as a family. Sorry this is so lengthy. Any words of advice or help are appreciated. Thank You!