Hello Jenna,
Welcome to the forum!
I am sorry to read about
everything you have been going through lately.
Splitting from a loved one/partner can be tough and we will feel a number of different emotions during this period. If the relationship was not doing you any good, it is better for you move on. You will miss your partner but things will eventually get better.
A psychiatrist can diagnosed someone with Bipolar. They usually complete an evaluation on you and they make the diagnosis. If you think you may be Bipolar, talk to you doc and ask them to recommend you to see a psychiatrist. Counseling will also help you through what you're currently going through. Please consider this.
Please know that you made the right choice by not wanting to hang out the the Bar B Que's where there were people who were drinking.
Congrats on being in recovery! This is a big step and you have done well.
Are you attending any AA meetings?
I hope things will get better for you.
UA