Struggling

If I explained my life story I could write a book and that might cover it all. I was diagnosed with Bipolar I about 15 years ago and have made the choice to not medicate. Today has been a big struggle for me and I am feeling a little lost.

It was a mixture of things all rolled into one and I got overwhelmed. I am pregnant so I am sure some of it is hormones, my husband works in the oilfield so he is rarely home so feeling lonely, and my support system lives in Idaho (where I moved from 2 years ago), my step-dad is one that likes to make everything about him and stresses me out (I talked to him recently) and I am currently in the process of finding out if my real Dad is my real Dad through a DNA test. For the last 30 years I thought someone else was my Dad (he is a pedophile) and recently found out through Facebook after my Mom passed away in a car accident that he may not be my father and this other man might be and he just has a way to make me feel bad about things. I also think alot of it is that my Mom was here and helped me get through my pregnancy with my daughter 8 years ago and now that I am pregnant again I just don't have the same support.