Posted 12/7/2014 9:55 AM (GMT 0)
hi all.
i think it is apt and important to remember that 'some' people hide behind there disorders when it comes to taking responsibility for themselves. especially with bi-polar. but with saying this there are a lot of very high functioning individuals around this world who have bi-polar and still get on with expletive life and be successful. i will never ever say this was or is etc because of my disorder. that is a expletive cop out. i guess i never had support before, was homeless for 3 years being mentally unwell and severe and had to fend for myself. my life has all been about a sequale of the most barbaric abuse imaginable. i have been hospitalised 28times. 6 of them long term. i did a live in program for people another condition i had also. i have had a course of ECT, which helped, took awhile though. my family kicked me out, packed my bag and left me. 3 yrs later i walk up to my mothers house, my brother saw me and he ran to me. he was young, he didn't understand. i said mum, why?
obviously there are deeper issues here. and they have been dealt with. i just get frustrated by people who do not accept that they are responsible for there own health, and when they can not be then give the power to let others help in 'their' recovery. i have recovered from quite a few disorders, i still rapid cycle, but i know what when and how, prepare for the mania and crash, they are not as bad when you know how to effectively work through it. i also have a personality disorder and a myriad of health concerns.
i admit i get jumpy on the forum about trying to educate people that bi-polar is the disorder and not the person. the problem is, is that some people with the disorder just chose to hide behind their disorders and refuse assistance. well expletive them i say. i mean i was working, studying at university when it all went pear shaped. i gave it a big shake, the tree before i had to be told that i need to quit uni and go on the pension, as that way i can better access services, ha!!! i battle on with no support, got my fiance, my sis, am in therapy and see a shrink each quarter. i use coping skills and medication to combat my illnesses. once you allow the disorder to envelop you it is very hard in coming back. but, you do recover from bi-polar, you can function with it. bi-polar has become a nasty word in the psych fraternity, in particular due to things like rapid cycling and hypomania. yes a locus of control, but with treatment, and i mean therapy, medication and a plan people will and do recover. some people chose not to. it's easier for them.
i have always battled and pushed. this post is not about self glorification, far from it. it is just highlighting some things from a person with bi-polar point of view. keep well.