A good start

I'm not going to give up. I'm going to keep it up. I mean, going from doing nothing and then watching what I eat and doing something active 7 days a week, has to make a difference some how. Right?

Hey, that sounds like a great idea!!

I think if I get up in a good time I can get my walk in before it might rain. Later my son and I are supposed to go to a baseball game. Hopefully it won't get rained out, but if it does we can get different tickets for a different day.

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I'm going to make myself not give up. I need to be patient when it comes to this. Thank you for your support!

I'm doing pretty good today. I woke up and called my friend and we went for almost a 3 mile walk. At around 4:30 I'm taking my son, his friend, my daughter's friend and me to the baseball game. Then when we come back my daughter and her friend can hangout again. She spent the night last night. This is like her 2nd home. She loves hanging out at my house, because she can act herself and vent her feelings without any question. That's what I'm good at I guess. Then my husband kept making sure that I'm getting the seats that are far away from the foul line. I kept telling I was but it's like he wouldn't shut up about it. See he's really paranoid about it since last year he got hit in the head by the ball and had stitches inside and out and broke his nose. I understand why he's so worried but I said I would be careful and I will. I almost said that we weren't going and that he would have to tell our son why he's not going to the baseball game, but he finally calmed down once he saw that I was mad and didn't want to speak to him at the moment.

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Well I picked the right seats and we were safe and sound. I even took a picture and sent it to my husband so he would be at ease and know that we were in a good spot. They won 2-1. It was a great time. It didn't even rain on us which was even better.

What?! $1 million dollars for catching a ball. Well we should of hit the jackpot when my husband got hit by that ball. LOL

Silent treatment usually works because he sees that I don't want to fight and don't feel like repeating the same thing over and over again. It's a good approach.

So what have you been up too?

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That still seams pretty awesome to win that.

Things are fine now with my husband and I. Especially since he knew I had a good time and came home safe and sound. LOL

What's go you in a funk? I know I get like that and I have to see my NP right away before it goes bad. I hope it's not the same for you. I wish good weather to you. It's been nice here and the weather was calling for rain but so far it keeps blowing over. The lakes around here are so high because of all the rain. It's crazy.

Right now I'm helping a friend go through a rough time. She has been with this guy for almost 3 years. He has a daughter who is 7 and she has a son who is 4 and they both share a child together who is 1. They had a big fight and it looks like its over. She was a stay at home mom and now she has to hurry up and find a job, a home and get on her feet and still be strong through all of this. It doesn't help that she lost her dad about 3 weeks ago. She is an emotional wreck. She is starting to see my daughter's therapist and I hope she does wonders for her like she did my daughter. I don't want to be in the middle sometimes because she can be mean to his daughter and how do you tell someone that they treat someone else's child badly at times. On the other hand he uses her to take care of his daughter because without her he wouldn't be able to see her because of his work and then she would have to live with her mom. It's a crazy mess and I certainly hope something gets straightened out. It's so sad. It makes me glad that my husband and I went through a lot of tough times and we still stuck together and love each other more than ever.

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It is really hard for her right now. I'm glad that I'm with her and I'm not to far away for her. He was supposed to see his kids tonight and instead he decided to go out with friends. He can't see them tomorrow because he has to help his Uncle and then he's going to his boss's party. Then Sunday he said he may be able to come over to mow the lawn, but she has made plans to see her best friend. So he has wasted time to see them. He knows not to come over here because we would tell him that his needs to take responsibility and do the right thing and not go party. He chooses to go to other peoples house or a girl who doesn't really know how he is and would believe his lies. That's the kind of guy he is. It's very exhausting though.

Well on other things, how are you doing? Are you still in your funk?

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Yesterday she did great. She came over to our house and we spent the whole day together at our 4th of July party and she stayed for the fireworks and her youngest did great! Now the next day she is a mess. They just keep arguing. He kinda tried to something right by her and that's great but then he takes 2 steps back and makes everything worse. She doesn't help by always calling him names and putting him down. I told her that if she can't have a civil conversation with him then she needs to walk away from her phone and go calm down. They both need to do that. I get a call today at 11 that she needs me to come see her. I go and see her and she has a knife by her. I call her out on it and said that I'm not going to put up with that kind of behavior. I will do what ever it takes to get her through this but I watched my daughter hurt herself and I will not let another person do it too. I told her that it's not an option and that she needs to be there for her boys. She can get through this it's just a bit painful for awhile, but nothing that you can't overcome. Then she calls me around 5:30 pm and is balling her eyes out and wants me to take her boys because she just can't do it anymore. I finally got her to calm down. If she doesn't watch it she could lose the boys by acting this way and not getting control of herself. Good grief.

You should talk to your doctor and see you should adjust your meds. It may be worth the shot. I know it's always helped me.

Our 4th of July was awesome. Tons of food and great company. My parents came and had a good time and left before the noise began. My dad was in the Vietnam War and can't stand the smell or sounds of fireworks, guns and other things that remind him of the war. I completely understand though. My mom made some really good cupcakes and deviled eggs. She makes the best deviled eggs I know of. Wish you were here so you could have a great day with us and maybe get out of your funk.

Well lets see what tomorrow brings. Hopefully a great day.

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Well her insurance doesn't cover for any mental sessions which is stupid because taking care of yourself mentally is a very important thing. So she has to pay out of pocket. The NP I go to said she would help her but she still needs money for that. It's every time a door opens for her she gets another slammed in her face.

My mother is driving me nuts. She gets in these controlling moods and it is a bear to be around. She also treats my daughter one way and my son a mean and controlling way. She does this with any person that is high strung and a unique personality. For instance, she was trying to show my son how to work her selfie stick and he was trying to show her that it was okay to do something and she was insisting that it would not. They are like oil and water. So he wanted his phone back and she wouldn't and he insisted that he wanted his phone back and she was nasty about giving it to him. Then she tried to do the same thing to my daughter but with a different tone. Oh she also whispered to her not to let my son use it. My daughter told me that later in the day. That pissed me off even more. Now my sister and her family are coming to visit tomorrow. I would love to get excited but we are going to be crammed in a little condo with more than 10 people in there. Plus grilling out which I suggested that to my sister except have it a my house. We have 2+ acres, we can grill out under the canopy, go swimming, playing games and tons of room without feeling suffocated. You would think it would be the better choice but we have to walk on egg shells to be around her. I'm so sick of it and her moods. I've been doing so good I don't want to be in a bad mood but she puts me in such a predicament I feel I have no choice. I even told my NP and she said to do my best and if I can't take it anymore then walk away and go where it is quit. If they don't like it then maybe my mom should adjust herself instead of me always trying to do so.

Thanks for letting me vent. When it comes to my mom it's a weird relationship. I love my parents but I don't like how she treats my kids and how she tries to control things.

On a better note, I got in touch with an old friend that I haven't talked to in over 4 years. She texted me and we are planning to see each other maybe this weekend. She likes to do crafts and quilting as well. She is older than me but is a blast to be around. It will be nice to get back together with each other. Less drama too.

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Well today went as I expected. My mom was acting like her controlling self and trying to do things her way or making it so it was what my sister wanted because my sister will not tell her how she really feels because she doesn't want the tension. My mom was being controlling with her dogs because the one always jumps on you and it scratches really hard. Then she had to drive the dogs to this place so she could walk them but couldn't just walk them around her condo area. Then she wanted to have a group picture and was insistent on using her selfie stick but we didn't need to because my daughter's boyfriend was there and he could take it with all of us in it. She got pissy with me because I was trying to tell her that and she threw her little fit. This happened right after we go back from eating breakfast. Then a couple hours later they were wanting to know what we were doing for lunch. Well I wasn't very hungry from breakfast. They wanted to take us to this pizza place where you only pay cash at (what a pain), but we ended up going to Chipolte. Which at the time was so busy and there were barely any seats. I tried to tell them that it's busy and there probably is not going to any place to sit. She was giving me grief for bring that up. Then she was seeing if my kids were coming to join us since my daughter and her boyfriend went to the pet store down a couple stores. I said that I took care of it and she acted snotty then and then I raised my voice and told her they are right there and that it was taken care of. She said well you didn't have to get in my face. If she only knew what that was like. After that I didn't look or talk to her the rest of the time. We said our goobyes and they left and my mom at the end was "well bye Lis" I said a short bye. I'm not in the mood for her crap. The sad part is is that we are always go to their house for gatherings. That would be fine except their house is a little condo, not meant for things like that. I on the other hand have plenty of room. I could have save $80 in food today if they would of just came to my house and we could of had a cookout. That would of saved everybody money on food since we still have a ton from the 4th of July party. But noooooo. Next time somebody visits I'm going to see if they are willing to come to our house and if my parents aren't up for it then I think I'm going to save myself the trouble and just not go. I'll explain to my siblings why and we can do something with them another time. It's pretty bad that my niece and son went upstairs so that they weren't bothered by my mom. Don't get me wrong I love my parents, it's just that my mom treats people a certain way and then never admits when she is being crapty. It's someone else's fault that it got like that. She make it seem like since I'm Bipolar that it's because of my moods. I also told her that when my daughter was diagnosed at being Bipolar I too that the doctors said that it is inherited. So since my daughter has it that my mom or my dad or both deal with a mental issue. Well she will never admit that she has issues and my dad is some what the same way. Once again, that you soooo much for letting vent. It's nice to just let it out besides venting to my husband who hears it a lot but totally understands me because he has seen her in action and can't stand it. He tries to avoid going there. Him and my dad are great and have a good time it's my mom that cause the ripples.

Here is to having a better day tomorrow. Especially this Saturday when I get to see my old friend.

Lis1208

I don't think the rest of my family would come to my house because they don't want to start anything with my parents, mainly my mom. I mean last year my sister and her family and my parents and friends and one other time like 7 years ago. We have been at my parents a ton of times At least twice a year.

Her and I are both excited to see each other.

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