Hello I'm the Newbie😜

Hello

My name is Kim, I live in a small town just outside of Toronto by two or three hours on a bad day. And if your wondering where in heck that is, yes it's in Canada🇨🇦🌨☃⛄️❄️‼️

In 2007, I gave birth to my only child, a daughter named Anastasia. A few months after that I found I broke my pelvis, herniated L4/L5 discs. I then started crying myself to sleep. Then the nights poured into the daytime and soon enough I was tears most of the day. My original GP (general practitioner) told me it was depression and the baby blues.

Well fast forward to today, I went back to my new GP (we have moved so new doctors) to tell her what my husband told me. Apparently I spike happy and sad a lot. I feel aggregated a lot too. Stupid things really make me upset. I'm so tired a lot. And I snap at my beautiful daughter because she didn't pick up after herself. I feel horrible cause I'm a "mean mother" I have never hurt her but I'm sure I have broken her heart a lot & have let her down.

So with a new diagnoses of bi polar, I guess I'm looking for advice suggestions things that did and didn't working for you all. I have another appointment next week to discuss Med's. As right now I'm just in ciperlex and it's just not working well for me.

Sorry this is longer than I had anticipated.

Thanks for reading, Kim🇨🇦

Post Edited (TwinkleT0es) : 11/25/2015 7:56:18 PM (GMT-7)

welcome. agree with UA, 3 pronged attack is a necessity with bi-polar, medication, therapy and coping skills / support. we care. I am in Australia. I live bi-polar affective disorder, and et al!!

cbt (cognitive behaviour therapy) older style of therapy that is still in use, and dbt, (dialectical behaviour treatment), dbt was devised by m. linehan as the front line therapy for borderline personality disorder, and is now one of the most used therapies within personality type disorders. it is full core, with full core results. been doing dbt since 04. it is definitely not for the faint of hearted. but awesome.

Thanks for the info you two and support.

My GP sucks! So she has to put in a referral to a psychiatrist ! Well we knew that would happen, right? But I know it won't be for a while nor will she adjust my Med's.

Tried to talk to hubby about it and just got the cold shoulder. Lovely spent a while crying and feeling like crap. Had to wipe my face clean to pick up a friend. Pulled it all together so I could be sunshine and happy thoughts for my daughter. Happy happy joy joy😱

I just feel like a sack of crap right now. Christmas is just around the and that's not my favorite time of year. When I grew up it was a lot of yelling fight and bullcrap. So I guess that's part of my anxiety.

Anyways Tomrrow I'm off with my daughters class to see Charlie Brown Christmas play with the grade 2 class. Should be fun right? I pray I don't end up in a boat load of pain. I can't walk far but my daughter begged me to. How can I say no?? I can't that's another problem for another day. Anyways coffee in one hand painkillers in another hand. Hahaha

Anyways off to bed. Thanks for listening.

Today wasn't so bad, man I sure felt I was hurding cattle. Hahaha keeping all those 6 and 7yrs olds in line. Hahah it was cute the play was put on my local children as well. I've been going with on field trips since they were 4 years old. Haha so most of them are use to me. Since I am a stay at home parent I try to go to these types of things. We have only lived here for 5 years this coming Feb. So I like to go an explore and normally everything is free too or super cheap. So that's always a plus. And hey when she's 10 she isn't going to want dear old mom on a field trip. So I try to make memories when we can.

As for crying it out. Yea I guess your right I do feel better not so teary eyed today. Kinda numb a bit. I realized this morning I hastens taken my morning pills. Sigh guess that explains the pain and my brain all bring messed up and more sensitive than normal. I agree with you two a consult is a good idea, but what I worry about is the wait times to see the doc. I've been waiting to see a surgeon for a trigger finger release for 8months and finally the appt is dec 10. Yes I'm a broken body hahaha

I keep wanting to call you two ladies. Or are you gentlemen?

Okay gotta go make pizza dough. Yes I'm a cooker. I love to cook. I make all our meals from scratch and organic if possible. My husband's family has a farm just north of us. So we get all out beef products from them. We grow vegetable gardens in the summer months and then I can and freeze as much as I can. I go insane in the fall months cooking and canning for winter so we have fresh real food.

How are you two?

Talk soon

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Hey ya happy🐢 & UA,
I know it's been a while sigh, been trying or working feeling & healing. Honestly, no it's not waking still feeling full of anxiety & super stressed out. No it's not holidays or anything like that.

Things have been so busy, got new windows installed today, got a phone call this week about a psych consult. The only time that worked for means them is Jan 8. So that's total positive. Today saw the finger dr and he was going to fix it but it was working fine. 😡 And he told me he wouldn't touch it unless he saw it faked up. So needless to say after spending two hours waiting I was less than pleased. But he did say to call his office and he would get me right in. So that seems positive, I swear next time I'm gonna tape that ding finger up so it doesn't release.

Husband sucks, he comes up and 😤😡 upset at work dumps on me about it like I'm his boss and ughhhhhhhh. And when I say something it's like my fault. ***. Sigh man Jamie, why does your sex do this. Laughing out loud!!

Daughter was offered a spot on a beginner swim team through our local YMCA th That that was pretty cool, they practice three times a week. Ouch! Saturday will be equestrian, I think this 2016 is going to way busier than I had originally anticipated.

UA, I go I spits and spurts all the time with stuff, I have a half assed Xmas project on the go..and I may not bake stuff for mo this either.


How are yout both doing?

Hey UA,

🌨Snow❄️☃ you must have the wrong country! Bawhahaah when I left for the pain doc it was 45F sunny and notice, when in,eat to get kiddo from school it was 50F‼️ Yea so not like Ontario, ok ok so I moved to what they call Southern Ontario, still the same province but just right on Lake Ontario. They claim we have milder winter, Bollacks to that I say! Last year I we had bitter cold, tons of snow and I froze my ass off to the point I bought a parka this year. And it's sitting the in closet. I can not even remember a Christmas without snow. Sigh it's so wrong. Hell I wore my flip flops all day today. Sigh so wrong. But hey my toes had a mani pedi.

Hubby finally came around tonight, I had a massive snot fest and I'm still stuffed up a lot. Told him everything that I've been whining to you about too. I guess I feel better but still very sad and tearful. But now it's out there.

Weekend well, tomorrow is family and farm day. We go see his mom and brothers and dad at their family farm. Husband has to warm water to horse washbasin, his mom will more than likely looking after my 2yr old nephew as he's always a dump and run by his little brother. That's a whole another story.

Sunday I really need to finish my Christmas art for the gifts for the family. I stole some old wood from the barn, got my father in law to cut it for me, I stained it and vanished it. Now I have to strap them together and write the verse on them, the. String a mock clothes line on them for photos. Long story short I saw it at a local craft store for like $60 thought it was too much as I needed like 6 of them for the family and decided to make it. I'm still stuck on a verse though. It has to be about family and how we are different but there for eachtoher. Thus the barn board, some of it has holes and knots and to me it made me think of passed loved ones, and growing families.

Ok hubby says I am typing like a mad women and I've talked way to much.


😊🐢 Jamie, are you feeling any better dear?

Talk soon xo

K