I always had a bipolar disorder

Hi everyone,

I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder for about four years.
I have been looking for medication to treat depression and anxiety/panic, but it never occurred to me to look for medicine to treat bipolar disorder.
I only thought about concentrating on anxiety/panic and depression, and I forgot that I was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder, until I realized that it might be why all of the medicines that I was trying were not working.
Then it hit me, ah, maybe I need to try a bipolar medicine instead of depression, because depression medicine is not working, no matter which I try.
I would feel depressed and not want go anywhere. When I do go to my appointments, and I get outside, I feel like I'm on top of the world and try to get things done in just that day that I'm outside. I start talking to people for a long time until my husband stops me, but even then I still want to be there and talk some more.
Then I start to get overwhelmed, anxiety starts to kick in, I get angry, my body starts to ache all over, and I don't want to be out anymore. I just want to go home even if I didn't finish all of the things that I was supposed to do.
Then, when I am back home, I never want to leave the house again, and the next day my body feels like I was ran over by a bus.
So I don't know what medication to take between bipolar and depression.
I have seen someone for CBT, and I have seen a psychiatrist, therapist, councilor and my doctor. Please help me.

Thank you,
freakedoutone

Thanks Turtle,

I did see a psychiatrist before.
I did try some of the medicines, and they did not work at the time, but I am going to try them again.
I am just tired of taking all different kinds of medicines and finding that they don't work for me, but I know that I have to keep trying again and again.
It just gets old though, you know?
Again, thanks for your support and hope you feel better too!!!

Hi UserANONYMOUS,


I already stopped taking the med.
I will go see a doctor or a psychiatrist.
Thank you for your concern, and I hope you feel better too.
God bless,
freakedoutone