It's been awhile

It's been so long I can't even remember the last time I posted. Things have been doing really well. I got to make some amazing gifts for friends and family. So much so that it made them cry and they showed me how much it meant to me. That's the most amazing gift. Even my NP said that I've been doing so wonderful for this past year considering how I was over a year ago. Recently I've been in such a mood I can't stand it. I made a quilt for my niece for Christmas and some Lego's for my nephews. All I wanted was to hear them tell me how they liked their presents, well the boys that is. I did get to see a pic of my niece sleeping with her quilt but not directly. They posted it on Facebook, which I don't have and they know. If it wasn't for my mom making a screenshot of it I would have never know. I did get on Facebook from my daughter's account to see it and to see how my best friend is doing. See I don't hear from my best friend unless I look on Facebook. She never texts me only on rare instances and I worry about her because she has MS. I feel like no one takes the time to talk to you me any more. My brother did try to call and I missed it and he left a msg saying he would try again. It's been over a week since they received they presents. My best friend posted on Instagram saying what I made for her, but I never got to talk to her and hear how she enjoyed it. I would have given it to her in person but she's not been feeling good and she wouldn't open her door. Then my husband had a night out with his high school buddy with the kids which is fine, but tonight he went out again and called me at 12:30 am and said that he's just going to stay on the couch and be home in the morning. He never usually does that because he would rather be in his own bed. It's seems like everybody has gotten used to me just doing my own thing and thinking I'm okay with it. When really inside I'm screaming and crying because I feel like my feelings are hurt. Is it so much to ask to have a phone or personal conversation (no texting or email) but a nice chat to say what you are appreciative of instead of just a one word feeling. I guess I might be getting old fashioned but if someone takes the time to make something so important to give to you because they care that much about you don't you think you owe it to them to tell them how you feel?! Even my NP cried because I made something so inspiring and heart felt. I even made a quilt that I got paid for and when I gave it to the customer it gave them goosebumps and she was overwhelmed at how much that quilt is what she always envisioned it to be. I guess I should expect nothing and then this way I would be hurt. I guess when a customer/friend and a NP who I'm very close with and that she has changed my life, I could get more out of them then my own family and a best friend since 6th grade. I know my husband loves me very much, but I still love him in bed with me and when I wake up to. Even if I'm watching tv and he's playing a video game. We are still in the same room and still even manage to talk to each other while doing this. I guess I just needed to vent, but I hope I get out of this funk. At least I see my NP this coming Friday so that helps. Thank you for listening.

Lis1208

After I posted, my husband came home. I did tell him that it did bother me and he said he was sorry. So all is good there. I also talked to my husband about what has been bothering me and he also agreed that people should take more time to tell someone they appreciate things they receive or things they do with each other. His family is terrible about communicating, so he completely understands where I'm coming from.

We did have a great holiday though. We didn't have to go all over the place. My daughter went to her boyfriend's Christmas Day and she had a blast there. My son he hung out with us but played his Xbox 1. On New Year's we were invited to go to 3 places. The 1st one I didn't want to go because we went last year and it was like being in high school all over again, no thanks. The 2nd one was 45 minutes away and my husband didn't want me driving all that way home (even though I don't drink) and the 3rd one was ok to go to, but just would rather stay home. So instead we had a guy he works with and his girlfriend come and it was a great time. We played Apples to Apples. I'm buying the card game Cards Against Humanity soon, its so much fun.

My puppy is the best thing I got in a long time. He's so amazing! I still think I might have him be a therapy dog. He's just so pleasant to be around and he relaxes everyone he's in contact with. Even my husband calls him to bed so he can have snuggle time, which is hilarious since he's the one that didn't want a 3rd dog, lol.

I'm feeling better now so I think I just needed to get it off my chest. I'm still going to tell my NP just in case she needs to change my dosage. I'm miss talking to you UA.

Lis1208

Apples to Apples is the family version of Cards of Humanity. They are both fun to play and really quick too. So it can pass time for as long as you want.

I'm going to keeping working on Bailey on a few things but for the most part I think he can do it. He is afraid of dogs smaller than him which is funny. I keep taking to the pet store and socializing him more but he just tucks his head. He is never aggressive so that's good.

I started on my niece's wedding quilt yesterday. Omg!! It's coming out so beautiful! I think I might hang onto it and enter it into the fair. If you look up Twist and Turns Bargello quilt, Surf Song. You can see what I'm working on. It's so easy since I've done some similar to it but not as amazing.

Lis1208

I'm amazed at myself, because I didn't realize that it's not as hard as it seems and that it's like my own work of art. I can't draw or paint, but this is the closest I can come to it.

If you only knew Bailey. He's so great! I see my NP tomorrow. I think I would rather have him as my ETD (Emotional Therapy Dog), because he does help. I was looking and they even have service dogs that can help with people who cut themselves. They somehow help them not do that, which so cool I don't know how they do that, but that would be awesome for my daughter, especially when she gets on her own.

Lis1208

Hi Lis, Hi Cilly,

You guys are making me feel to get a doggie now!

How did your app go Lis?

UA