New bipolar talent....?

New talent I did not want.... I am in a place where I now multi task emotions. I am either crying or on the verge of it and then in a split second I am super mad. It does not take much either. I have always been able to multi task but this is all new to me. I am on my meds and they are working as I have had med poop out before. Things are just crazy right now. Anyone do this?

My state was all over, I was so depressed, manic and just wanted to give up. I have been stable and unstable over the years, and I am in a stable state. I have a lot of stress and my sleep pattern is off. I just hate to cry, I would rather pee myself in public honestly. Crying is not something I do very much. The anger I always have. I have never been violent, I have desire to be violent, just angry. It is just strange how my bipolar, depression and anxiety manifest themselves as I age.

@Tim Tam,
My depression is hard to control, we are always adjusting and trying to figure it out. My sleep schedule plays a huge role, I am not worried about getting covid, I have had it and I have had the shots. I cannot wear a mask or use any sanitizers, mask due to my nasal spur, which will cause my nose too bleed, and sanitizers due to bleach allergies. So I wear a face shield. I am just so over the lies and fear mongering. No one can actually make up their minds on what we should do. No mask, 1 mask, 3 masks? Lockdowns, no lockdowns?


Melatonin does nothing for me at all, I have sleeping pills and I do take them, but they are helpful for 2 hours maybe 3 then I am fully awake again. I cannot take a bath as we do not have one. I have my blanket as a "teddy bear" type feeling for me, I sweat too much for anymore heat, lol

Crying is not something that I do. It makes my eyes hurt, it also makes sleep harder for me for some reason. Also right now it hurts my left cheek and side of my nose due to my nasal spur, again.

Sorry this was so long...

You said, “I am just so over the lies and fear mongering. No one can actually make up their minds on what we should do. No mask, 1 mask, 3 masks? Lockdowns, no lockdowns?”

I think it’s confusing , also. For instance, on the anxiety forum, a mother said in effect, “The school system says we’re going to school this fall, and not require masks.”

I was concerned about that, also, and was wondering about home school, which would put a lot of pressure on parents who would actually have to teach their children at home. I can’t imagine how difficult that would be. So in a way, neither of those is really good.

Also, the “new” virus is coming on strong with a new vaccine supposed to be ready by September or some such time.

As for sleep, SuperDan from the Anxiety forum said about a year ago,
“Super dan’s recommendations for sleep and calm, from health food store.
(sleep rec. is melatonin, and valerian root together, called “knock-out” at wallgreen’s."

The difficulity might be that you said you aren't affected by Melatonin. But maybe in combo with Valerian Root it might be different.

Mayoclinic.org says, " Although valerian is thought to be fairly safe, side effects such as headache, dizziness, stomach problems or sleeplessness may occur." I think the part where it says valarian may be safe is key."

I've taken it before, as has Dan above, and we did not experience anything bad. Since you're you're meeting with your doctor, why don't you ask him?

As for a warm bath, how about a warm shower?

In addition to your religion, do you generally have a positive attitude that you can solve problems?

JessDee: Glad you're going to ask your doctor about the "Knock Out" sleep aid of Valerian Root and Melatonin health food pills.

Also appreciate your comment on another forum about the positive attitude:

"Tim Tam is right though being positive is a big part of your state of mind. It is hard to get used to and get in the habit of doing but you can."

I had been negative all my life, grew up in a negative household, and didn't know it since it was in my unconscious. But I read a column in the newspaper and one of the main things I got from it was, she said, "If you go into a problem thinking you will solve it, it doubles your chances of solving the problem."

I realized, that's where I was making my mistake. I didn't think I could solve problems, which closed down my thinking to actually solving it, and had me looking for nothing but defeat, since that was what I told my brain to do.

But when i started thinking, "Think positive, think positive, think positive," right before I started to think about the problem, my brain opened up to finding a solution, and sooner or later it often did. And if not right then, with time passing and still thinking positive, it often did find a solution at a later time.

I found that information invaluable, and I feel guilty if I don't tell others about it.

JessDee: Glad you found a way to try and solve your problems. For most of my life, I had no way. I would constantly be asking others what to do as I realize now, I was seeking out a positive brain to overcome what turned out to be my negative brain. Having been raised in a negative house hold, and I had bipolar, I didn't know what else to do.

I was my own worst enemy. When I saw the column on being positive which said, going into a problem, already believe that you can solve it, before ever thinking about the problem (by saying to myself, "think positive, think positive, think positive"), it woke me up. In a sense, my mother was no longer my mother, instead, this kind, positive lady who wrote the column was my guiding light, and I clung to that.

I'm on my 25th anniversary of being positive. I consider it the luckiest thing that ever happened to me.

Hey JessDee,

I too have ups and downs, and lately have felt like my emotions are out of control. Feel so many in a split second.

I hope you feel better.

UA