Thanks Rosie-
I can always count on you for good advise. I am REALLY trying to deal with this. My hubby bought a safe and locked up all my meds, including the Nyquil, Benadryl, cough syrup, etc. He's giving me my doses that I divy out in a pill thingy every week. I hate this, but I know it's for my own good, but I still hate it.
I ordered 3-4 new books on Amazon.com for bipolar, one's a workbook. When they get here, I'll post the titles as maybe they can help someone else.
I didn't really take offense to Shakes comments, I know he/she meant well. But I can't deny what I have. I have to deal with it head on. I can't bury my head in the sand. I go to church every week and am on my knees all the time. But it's up to me, not anyone else. All I can do is ask for help and advise here, through my therapist and my NP. And believe me, I listen. It's hard sometimes, but I try so hard. I'm in a funk tonight because of the pill safe thing. I feel like a baby, but right now, I can't be trusted with my meds. I just can't have a huge quantity at my disposal until I can pull myself out alone. Hence the Friday hospital stayover. Not fun, but I did it to myself and then realized what I'd done and called for help.
Rosie, you rock!