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Posted 1/30/2007 6:42 PM (GMT 0)
confused  I have a question for yall - Since I'm new to this whole BP world, have been diagnosed with cyclothymic (milder form of BPI) I'm not real sure what to expect this is what I've been feeling

Like I can drive down the road, and then like "wake up" and realize I'm driving - I function pretty good I guess when this happens, I also am getting bad short term memory loss - like can't remember some things from days ago - don't know if it's that, or just can't remember - i do know, that like when I was driving and I "woke" all I remembered was getting in my car, starting to drive, then, BOOM I realized where I was, and where I was going, but couldn't tell you which way I had went to get to where I was at that point. It scared me at first - I talked to my Friend Carrie who is DID and she said it may be depersonalization.. that I should talk to someone about it if it keeps happening - I'm pretty sure it only happens when I'm to the point of breaking when I'm so stressed out, I have either cycled to being angry or hypomanic, doesn't seem to happen when I'm down..

Anyway, was just wondering if any of you had the same or similar experiences..

the only meds I'm on is Xanax .25mg as needed, and they just calm me down for panic disorder, they don't make me feel like I'm in a fog or a zombie or anything like that..

Anyway, peace to you all -

Thanks for any comments

Dawn

 

Posted 1/30/2007 8:19 PM (GMT 0)

Hi there , I get DP a lot. I am not on any meds but my doc told me it was a symptom of my panic/anxiety rather than the BP.

It can be annoying and sometimes embarrasing.....also scary if you find you don't recognise your surroundings , but I have found that if you just relax and give yourself time (even if you're driving - just keep calm and carry on driving or pull over if it's safe) you will soon find out where you are/what's going on.

Posted 2/3/2007 12:25 AM (GMT 0)
dawn,

sorry it took me so long to rrespond to your most interresting questions.  i don't know what "depersonalization" is - i'm simply not familiar with the term (or it could be short term memory loss :-) ).  i believe that short term memoy loss is a function of the diseasse.  at first i thought it might me a side-effect of the mediation.  but is reading about this phenominae in this forum, i discovere that short-term memory loss happened no matter what the medication - or lact thereof.  i haven't asked my pdoc about it yet - too many other pressing issues - but plan to ask him at our next session next week.  i personaly find the short term memory loss more than just a little disconcerting.  they are frustrating, embarrassing, and on occation even dangerous.  i have not found any correllation between short term memory loss and and "triggers" such as anger, frustration, etc.

hope this helps.  let us know what you come up with.

warren

Posted 2/6/2007 3:34 PM (GMT 0)
thanks Warren, I will,
still haven't been to therapy - going through this "do I really need it?" stage.. find myself for the first time noticing that I'm cycling or about to, trying to control it - yeah, right - we know how that goes huh? Anyway, going through LEAVE ME ALONE mode, haven't been here lately, but appreciate the replies , am trying to work through this... again... alone....
Dawn
Posted 2/6/2007 3:40 PM (GMT 0)
just to add alittle, my friend told me it was dissociation , not depersonalization - which could be a sign of borderline personality disorder.. what next? think I will make appt to see pdoc
thanks, Dawn
Posted 2/6/2007 10:40 PM (GMT 0)
dawn,

i finally found my other self - lol.  i am the most stubern self-reliant sob that you've ever met.  LEAVE ME ALONE!  heck, i invented he phrase.  but the pain from a botched epidural steroid injection drove me to attempted suicide.  after two back surgeries i can hardly walk and am taking mophene to help me cope with the constant pain.  in short, i may still be bull headed, but i depend on an army of professionals to keep me functional.

look at it another way dawn.  you are never alone.  got a computer?  we're all here to help, listen, commissorate, whatever.

take care of you.  you'e the only one of you inhe entire universe.

warren

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