Hi there
I think my biggest problem at the moment is to figure out what is normal behaviour .
The area we live in is very remote and getting to therapy is quite a mission ..im due to see the pschycrist on Wednesday for a check up , but I would also like to go to therapy to learn to deal with stress and anger.
Im feeling dopey from the meds but otherwise relaxed ....
I must tell you what happened tho its quite embaressing.
We live on a very large sugar cane estate (farm that grows sugar cane) and my hubby works for the company , in October a position became vacant at the office and I applied for it ..in the meantime I was also raising "total manure" about the state of the house we live in ..it was a case of having no one to pick an argument with so that ws a handy one .
As it turned out im the only one in the area suitable for the position . but it occurred me that my behaviour hadnt been exactly "saintly" and perhaps I should explain to our two farm managers .. that im indeed a qualified pain in the behind and in fact bipolar and that they might be justifiably wary of having a "lunatic " working in the office .
The mess ups we make ????????? oh well they were both delighted with my honesty and it now depends on head office and I will probably get the job 
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I was very irritated this morning and this is what I cant work out .. what level of irritation is normal ????? my conures were screaming and I was discussing various herbs to use with them ... and then I took my dogs for awalk around the garden and I ws fine .
BTW I am South African and perhaps I use diffrent words and expressions so if you arent sure what im saying just yell. 