Hi Amylou85,
First let me welcome you to HealingWell and to our board. I hope we can offer you some advice and friendship here.
Next I would say it sounds like you could use a second opinion. You don't agree with the doctor's diagnosis, you feel your symptoms are worsening and you don't trust your doc, try a new doc.
Don't feel scared, try and be proactive instead. Have you tried keeping a mood chart? Here's a link to a site that has mood charts and instructions for completing them.
www.manicdepressive.org/moodchart.html Track your moods and take it in to your doc to show what your moods have really been like. That will help give an accurate picture.
Hope this is helpful. Again, welcome.
serafena