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Hello all. My username is tyno3. I fall into a multitude of Foruns. I'm diagnosed as BiPolar since 1990. I can't stay with anything for very long. Relationships are short, I do things to push people away. I'm most comfortable curled up in a fetal position, alone. My employment history is very choppy, I always thought it was my personality. I either couldn't show up at all, or I'd break out in tears over silly things. It's been a very choppy life. When I'm up, rarely, but still, agitated, anxious and irritable. It 's a really uncomfortable place to be. Being down is kinda like an old friend, just me and my sadness. I'm not really on meds right now. I take 100mgs. of amyltriptilene at bedtime in order to sleep. The SSRI's stopped working after about five years. Mood stabilizers, I can't tolerate the side effects. I also have a chronic pain problem, an autoimmune disorder, migraines, Irritable bowel, and possibly Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I think my Limbic system is royally messed up.Anyone else got this combo? Thank's bye for now.

Hi Tyno, I'm new to this site and thought I would say hi and hope you're having a better day today than you were when you posted your first thread.

Tyno3 again. Thanks for you welcomes. I'm experiencing a bit of hypomania right now. I think, no I know, these longer June days have flipped me into an anxious, irritable state. That's agitation. As I was coming up from the depths of depression I started a bunch of new projects. Now I'm feeling overwhelmed. I am productive though, and am getting some long term issues ironed out, but I feel people pulling back from me, and attribute that to being "över the top". Still waiting to see a psychiatrist, over a year. Lamictal, I tried it a while back, at first it seemed to do nothing, then I developed a rash. Doc, at that time took me right off of it. Tried Valporic Acid, really hard on the liver. I don't want lithium, makes people look like a marshmallow, puffy and stiff.