Manic then Depressed

Hey.  Today I started out manic and had lots of energy which was hard because I am on bed rest/no activity due to the complications from my pregnancy.  I wanted to do stuff; I needed to do stuff.  I had energy to burn.  Then as the day wore on (I am a rapid cycler) I slowly got depressed and ended up crying in bed for 30 minutes.  I took an Ativan because I was just uncontrollably crying.  I just crashed.  Now I am just somber and sad and down.  But at least I only have 9 1/2 weeks left of my pregnancy; hopefully I will make it to the end.  At least if my son is born now he will survive.  I really don't know what I am depressed about; I just am.   Although some of it is that I can't do anything.  It is hard.  Other than that I am just down.

Hope the rest of you had a good day.

Missflip

Hi Missflip. I guess I have missed some of what is going on since I haven't been on here in a while. I didn't know that you had complications. I know that bedrest can be tough. I had to be on bedrest with my second child. (so long ago now) and it can be depressing.

I am also a rapid cycler. and I have quite a few mixed states like yesterday. I have been down for a while though. I am sure that you can last until the end of your pregnancy. You are a strong woman whether you know it or not. to be able to get this far is pretty good for us bipolar women. Just hang in there. I will try to be in here more often.