Hi all! Please can anyone help! I think Im bipolar as Ive had mood swings that started in my teens - then I thought this was down to hormones! Since then I have unravelled a whole host of symptoms that seem to be more prominent, consistent and regular. Where do I start? My symptoms I guess:
highly increased libido - even more than normal
At times an inability to focus clearly on one thing - eg at work I may start a task, stop after 10 mins, move onto another, then do this with about
6-7 different tasks, moving backwards and forwards. Im constantly thinking and talking to myself in my head about
everything and anything, sometimes out loud (although not often). At work I can have days where Im fantastically productive and some of the work that I produce is beyond anything I thought I could produce (Im a financial analyst) - other days I just cant focus or when I do work the work is sub-standard and laboured.
I can be the life and soul of the party on the outside and feel really down on the inside. Sometimes I cant hide it and its clear theres something wrong. There are times when i feel amazing and unstoppable and other times where i just feel crap. I was looking forward to a works party for weeks and weeks and weeks and when i got there i just wanted to escape. i feel really guilty about
spending just £10 on a CD for myself and then other times i just think forget it and blow hundreds of pounds on an xbox or something.
I start many different projects when on in my 'up phase' that i think are going to change my life and change the world and throw all my energies into it....and then just give up or lose interest.
I get down but not suicidal. i get very irritable, bad tempered and snappy. Sometimes I want to confront anyone and everyone. i dont sleep very well at all and often when im in an 'up phase' i lay awke thinking about
my latest project!
Im very creative by nature and when i go through what i think are manic phases the writing i create just flows and its brilliant - at other times i cant write a paragraph.
There are other things i could list but i think ill explode if i try and remember everything! LOL!
The doctor says im not bipolar as i dont have long phases of depression in my down phase where i cant function and i dont stay awake all night doing things in my 'up phase'.
Please can anyone advise??!
(I had to edit out some language -- Please check out the forum rules. Thanks, serafena)
Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 12/10/2008 1:05:52 PM (GMT-7)