Hi everyone, Belated Happy Holidays...
....Ugh 
I have been depressed since these holidays started last week. Today has been the worst, and I have to go back to work tomorrow. I am anxious about it. Mondays in dr's offices are bad enough, but it will be a Monday after being closed since Tuesday of last week!! 
I honestly don't know how I will get through it. To top it off, the other secretary won't be there. She had a major tragedy over the holidays...So it will just be me and one of the other girls. We're both really hard workers, so I know we can do it. It's just harder for me right now. And the other girl doesn't know about my bp, no one at work does, so it's not like I could vent a bit. Also, the other secretary is on my mind. What happened with her last week was horrific and I just found out today. She is on my mind as well.
Relationship has been rocky of late, to say the least. I am back to being very confused about my feelings and the future. I am very emotional lately. All of this stress has definitely brought on the depression. I just hate it. I hate feeling this way. I've tried to cope...Today has just been so difficult. I know I need to do something to distract myself, but all I can do is sit and stare into nothing. If this lasts a few more days I will call my pdoc. Ugh, the thought....
Anyway, thanks for reading. You are all in my thoughts, and I hope none of you are feeling this way right now--althought I know that's probably not realistic. Many, many hugs....
PS--I've updated info below...I am now on Lamictal 325mg/day. Guess I may still need to up that???