Back again

Hi everyone,

Well, I'm back. I'll be here on the board, but with a quieter presence for a little while. I'm just not up to a lot of chatter, I think. You're all still my favorites, though.

I'm still SOOOO sad. I tried to go back to work this week (which was foolish -- it was much too soon) and only managed to stay the full day once out of four days. Luckily my bosses are friends and very understanding and supportive. I have good days and bad days, but even the good days are marred by crying jags. Everyone tells me this is normal and I'm being too hard on myself. Probably true. I'm just trying to move on with my life, which is what my father would have wanted, and what I want, but it's so hard. Everyone tells me it's too soon to expect to feel normal. I've never felt grief like this before. And I'm nervous about falling into a depression, which it feels like, so I'm a little worried too.

So that's me. Hope you all are doing better than that. Big hugs,
serafena

I remember when my mom passed, and at that time I had already been diagnosed with my bp.  Yes I was sad, but then I would think of something silly my mom did and automaticaly I would stop crying and start to laugh.  Just remember with every sad feeling of loss just think about a good memorie of that person.  My favorite happy thought is when we were at a big family picinic and my mom had a bee fly up her pant leg and my sister pulled her pants off. Everone started to laugh and it is a memory that I will never forget.  Try it when you feel well enough to do that, and yes my mom was very sick when she died, but I still did it.  Hang in there my prayers are with you.