Hi Young_insecure,
Welcome to HealingWell and to the bipolar board. We're glad you're here. I've noticed you've already responded to a couple of posts. Thanks for jumping right in.
Yeah, bipolar doesn't go away, I'm afraid. I'm sorry your symptoms are getting worse after a few good years. You should probably get to a doctor. Even without insurance, you should still be able to see one. Most towns have a mental health clinic which sees patients on a sliding scale. They usually offer therapy as well.
In the meantime, the rules of bipolar: minimize stress, no alcohol, and get plenty of regular sleep. Not as easy as they sound written out like that, but goals to work towards.
Hope you feel better. Let us know how you're doing.
serafena