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Posted 2/9/2010 6:16 PM (GMT 0)
Hello my name is Heather I am 26 yrs old and I have bipolar.

I have had bipolar for 10 years now and this is my lowst point.

I have a boyfriend of 6 years!

I decided to go back to school b-c I was sick of staying home. More then that is I wanted to feel like I could do something "GOOD" in my life. Well I signed up for 4 classes and found 2 of them to be to hard for me (I am LD). I have found that I have become so depressed I dont want to leave my house! There are so many issues I am dealing with ontop of feeling dumb I gained 75lbs and now am fat. I feel ugly and useless. Jason and I just moved from my dads house into out own and I am finding we dont have enough money to stay here so I am worried on where we will go. Not only that my mom died in 06 and my dad is now lossing the house so I am worried for my family. The only thing I have dreamed of since I was little was having a family and great husband. I miscarried at 5months and I am so sad about that too. I just feel my life is falling down and I cant pick myself up. Im sorry to go on and on but no one is listening to me in my life that I felt that I needed to come on here and maybe someone will be nice to talk to me. I dont know why I dont have anything to offer. IM REALLY SAD/ I dont want to leave my house and all I want to do is sleep. Macomb county really sucks I cant even see a doctor to help me... :( Thanks for reading.

Posted 2/9/2010 7:03 PM (GMT 0)

I'm sorry to hear things are rough for you right now.  I hope you get a break soon.

(and welcome! smile )

Posted 2/10/2010 5:50 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Heather,

Welcome to the forum!

Don't be too discouraged. It sounds like you're doing the best that you can right now with some pretty hard circumstances to deal with. I'm sorry for your pregnancy loss. Your worries sounds substantial and real. Why can't you see a doctor? No one nearby? It sounds like you could really use a little extra help right now. Is there a city nearby where you could contact a therapist about phone sessions?

Hang in there!
serafena
Posted 2/10/2010 6:02 PM (GMT 0)
Serafena~
Thanks for the hope. I really do need the extra help! The city I live in you have to pay a lot of money to see someone (I cant afford)! I wish I could go back to EasterSeals but cant because I dont live in that city anymore. I havnt been able to get myself motivated at all and I am ready to quit school b-c I am so tired all the time and I feel I am to dumb to be there. All the things going on all at once makes me want to stay in bed and not get out! I have never hide from my friends and family and I have been doing more and more of that each day. I feel I am at a cross roads and dont know what to do or were to go. I wish I could see a doctor and counslor but I just cant afford it. Thank you agien and hope to talk soon
Posted 2/10/2010 6:03 PM (GMT 0)
tortoise~
Thank you!
Posted 2/10/2010 9:12 PM (GMT 0)
Hey we all understand about the problems of not being able to find somone to talk to . While not as good as a therpast we are all here to talk to. One benifit is that we all understand bipolar very very well andmight be able to offer you some help. If you need to talk just post here. Lots of good people here to help out and talk to you about things. You are not alone and you can make it and be successful.
Bill
Posted 2/10/2010 11:47 PM (GMT 0)
Yep! That's true!
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