You know the whole behind thing used to really really drive me crazy also. Once i got on my meds it somehow allowed me the peace of mind to take a step back and priortize my life. What i found was that most of it is small stuff that we overblow in our minds to huge proportions. I concentrate on things like work (have to pay the bills) Small things like a good book, excersising on the bike, and keepiing the house clean. Now when i say clean i do not mean better homes and gardens clean, i mean dishes don, trash out, and kitty litter cleaned. Clutter is clutter and i will clean it when i get the time and not worry about it otherwise.
Aside from that i work very very hard on being a good husband (hard as my wife has very bad depression issues that she refuses to get treated) A good dad to my step son (hard because i'm not his real dad, even though ive raised him 12 of 19 years) and a good daddy to my puppy and the kitties. (easy, i love them all so much)
Certain things will always be hard, however a life without challenges is a dull and boring. Try your best to take a step back and think, what to i want to be remembered for when i die. Am a person who kept a super clean house and paid every bill on time? Or am i a person who helped out his neighbors, loved well, and treated all others as best as i could? But what the heym there is no one saying you cant be both. LOL LOL LOL
Good luck and keep posting, we are all here to talk and offer support.
Bill