Tired and worn out

I got so depressed that I had to take a 2 week leave
of absence from my job. I stopped taking one of my
meds when I started getting depressed thinking it would
make me better as it is anti-manic, (abilify.) Well this didn't
work and on Celexa alone I just got worse.

Now I'm back on
abilify with the addition of celexa and lamictal. I am so tired
and confused about jobs and life. I can't read. I feel hopeless
and frustrated ad weak because I can't work but I hated my
previous job in a nursing home and I think that led to my downfall.

I'm glad to be alive and I have so much to be grateful for...I
just physically feel tired and my brain says I can't do it....anything.
Because I'm tired and worn out and I'm trying to get re-adjusted
to the meds. Sorry I sound like a whiner...I feel like I can't function.

I haven't cleaned the bathrooms in a month and I feel like a bad person.

Hey red,

Sorry to hear that you are so low. I am right there with you. Haven't had a high in 2 months. I've only been cycling a little....Oh being bp is such a joy!!

I hear you about being so tired. I hate that depression does that to us. It makes it so hard to actually do things that could make us feel at least a tiny bit better. I am finding it abosluetly impossible to read these days and that is hard because I love to read....Hopefully this will lift for you soon.

With depression comes guilt. A lot of it. Don't blame yourself for needing the time away from work right now; you need it. And it sounds like your previous job was really unhealthy for you mentally so I say good for you for realizing that. And when you are feeling this way, housecleaning even one room is overwhelming and then I find the kitchen and bathrooms even more overwhelming....Take things slow; you aren't feeling well, so give yourself some breaks. You are not alone in this at all. We are here, so keep us posted.

Take special care of yourself,
Mogs.