trip went okay...

  Darn, sorry about that viox. I understand those darn black mood swings, they are the worst.  how are your meds working? Or are you on them at all right now? I get those same feelings but they are much more bearable and controlable.

 Bill

Oh voix,

I hear you. I get off track of my meds on weekends and when I'm not at work....anytime I'm away from that routine it makes it difficult.

Just breathe; really...take some deep breaths, in and out slow and deep, in and out slow and deep....

You know what you're up against. You know what brought this on, so now you just have to take things one step at a time to get back on track and you can do it. Hold off on making decisions about bf until you are back on routine meds and you're feeling better....

Do you have anixety medication? I have clonazepam to take for panic/anxiety attacks. I notice I use more of it when I'm off track.

Hang in there, we are here for you. I'll check in on ya tomorrow.

Hugs,
Mogs

I am always having a mood when I don't want to be with my boyfriend... he sent me a message last night:
"I'm sorry about the fight earlier and how it ended. what you said really hurt my feelings and i just started to say things. Maybe you meant everything you said i dont know but im still sorry regardless. "

we are back together.. I just feel really crappy. I really would love to add an anxiety medication into the mix because the seroquel alone prevents the majority of mood swings but when I do have them they are always really bad ones.. yesterday morning I locked myself in a bathroom stall in the train station and cried for so long I could barely breathe and I couldn't move and I just sat there and I'm sure a lot of people heard me..
I tried to bring it up to my psychiatrist but I haven't seen him in months.. he thought the seroquel would cure all my anxiety/panic attacks and it has helped a lot but it's the only thing that hasn't been perfect.
i know my medication isn't working perfectly when I start getting really anxious.. ocd like symptoms, have to check every single minute opening my purse to make sure my wallet and cellphone haven't somehow fallen out, that sort of thing.

I finally got health insurance again yesterday, my step-dad was able to put me back on the same insurance I was on previously, only we're not sure if I can still see my psychiatrist because it's now tricare standard/prime? instead of reserve because he is going on active duty in the air force in two months. but it's okay as he's a new psychiatrist and i'm not attached to him at all.. i just think he knows his medication really well considering he put me on one our first meeting that has almost 'cured' me and that is something none of my other ones could do for years.