We all have those days from time to time.
For me i decided to view this as a challange, and i love challenges. I love beating the odds. Of course that can sometimes be a bad thing.
But for me, i viewed therpay as a big bull. And i walked up and grabbed it by the nose. That said, it decided to gore me, stomp me, and sit on me. 
But i still feel i got the better of it cause i took charge of it. Ther is a world of difference between BP II controlling me and me controling BP II. I have to at least try, because surrender isnt an option.
That said, there are days i lose. But i get up the next day, dust myself off, and give it the best i have again.
Good luck to you, hope it goes well, you can beat this and get better.
Bill