Well folks, im almost there. Its been a interesting 5 months, but this race is nearly run. Here is what i have noticed in my life.
Emotional: this is what i need to avoid, this triggers more manias than anything else. I have to live in the middle, i cant afford to let myself swing to the edges of emotions. The two major manias i have had i can directly trace to her pushing my buttons.
I have kept to the high road, i have been above petty bitterness and acting like a jerk. I feel this is paying off now. Taking the high road, and not letting the emotions of it to get to me has been hard at times. But i havnt created any more hurt feelings. But i do know that i have just bought some breating space here, that i will need to have some time for me to come to grips with this over time.
And a bit of hope shines thru. She sounds like she might be willing to let me keep the house. I will let her live there (i live in an appartment) for a year rent free (thats worth 13,000) and in the end she moves out and on and i get the house. I have to talk to my lawyer, but keep a good thought and it may happen. Otherwise i will have to go to foreclosure and lose the house.
So here goes, final push. Lots of emotions and stress the next month and a half. But im almost there.
I'll keep you all posted.
Bill